Personal Narrative: My Anxiety

When I started my first year of middle school in sunny San Diego, I started to constantly experience strange emotions. It acted as if it were a set of biological chain reactions. I would first feel scared and uneasy, then I feel vulnerable. My heart would feel as if it was trying it’s hardest to escape my chest, like it didn’t want to be there. Suddenly having these emotions forced me to cry. My anxiety doesn’t have a sense of societal norms meaning there isn’t a time or a place, it just happens. When I was having my panic attacks in school, I was confined to the classroom or the bathroom. Then, I never had the chance to calm myself because I was surrounded by my peers everywhere I went. Being constantly bothered by people I had to find my peace somewhere else. …show more content…
Being alone and surrounded by nature, I can easily distract myself from my anxiety. I will watch ants march in straight lines or the squirrels chasing each other in the trees, and the warmth of the sun on my face gives me a fuzzy sense of comfort. Eventually everything goes away. I sit down and my eyes are closed and I focus on the warmth on my cheeks, the vermilion the back of my eyelids changes to when I face the sun. I feel the breeze running on my skin and through my hair. I forget about everything, I do not think about past or present events that have made me feel uncomfortable. When I have made my connection to nature I feel stable.