I wanted to vomit and run away. But I couldn't run away from it and I hadn't eaten in days so I couldn't vomit. The nurses and doctors said it was a “good looking stoma” But in my mind, I had woken up with a monster attached to me. I covered it up. “Looking at it in the mirror helps and even naming it can help,” said the nurse. I wanted to tell her she was stupid and how could I name this. I regretted getting a life-saving surgery in that moment. I wanted to go back in time and tell myself don't get it! For the next few days, I tried everything in my power to not look at it. But as you can imagine it was quite hard too. I decided it was the best thing for my care to get adjusted to this thing on me. I looked at it for hours at a time in the mirror. I even named it Gummy. It's not the best name but it was what I could come up with. Soon I could clean and care for it without wanting to vomit or to cry. This surgery was the first of three long surgeries I had to face. Living with an ileostomy and going through all this taught me many things. One was my love for
I wanted to vomit and run away. But I couldn't run away from it and I hadn't eaten in days so I couldn't vomit. The nurses and doctors said it was a “good looking stoma” But in my mind, I had woken up with a monster attached to me. I covered it up. “Looking at it in the mirror helps and even naming it can help,” said the nurse. I wanted to tell her she was stupid and how could I name this. I regretted getting a life-saving surgery in that moment. I wanted to go back in time and tell myself don't get it! For the next few days, I tried everything in my power to not look at it. But as you can imagine it was quite hard too. I decided it was the best thing for my care to get adjusted to this thing on me. I looked at it for hours at a time in the mirror. I even named it Gummy. It's not the best name but it was what I could come up with. Soon I could clean and care for it without wanting to vomit or to cry. This surgery was the first of three long surgeries I had to face. Living with an ileostomy and going through all this taught me many things. One was my love for