Personal Narrative: Junior Year: Higher Level Thinking

There's this saying that I like to tell myself in the middle of a rough patch of homework. I like to say that if my life was to be made into a Broadway musical, it would be prequel to Rent. How I see it, I would be a young Roger Davis. In the musical, Roger is a struggling musician who can't seem to come up with a single song. Rather unfortunate because being a musician is his profession and he can't make money without new material. How I play into this story is that I am him but in high school and instead of being a musician, I'm just the student. My inability to create is the direct parallel between the two shows. Like Roger, new material is necessary to my occupation but due to certain circumstances I am unable to produce. Why might this …show more content…
To make the jump to these higher level thinking classes, it felt as if I accidentally walked off the edge of building, onto a trampoline, then landed onto a glass building subsequently breaking through the roof onto a large cement slab. What I'm trying to get at is that I didn't know what I was getting into but its was fun for a brief moment. What I didn't initially see was the giant gap in the number of essays assigned between sophomore and junior year. My mind was far from prepared for the number of ideas I needed to have to stay afloat. My simple, minimally political list of topics was rather full at the beginning of the year but now, baren. My list is the California Drought and what I need more than anything is torrential rainfall and flooding. Currently, the biggest factor as to why my list is at a stand still is my lack of ethos. I am a person who has not lived life. Little of my time has been spent outside of my personal bubble which has caused my personal experience to be extremely limited. No experience, no ethos, At the same time, there's no way I could allow myself to pull a ‘I have black cousins so I can talk about racism’ …show more content…
I am at a point in time where my last resort is to reflect upon myself to in an effort to relieve the mental strain of trying to be original and special. Realistically, I could stop procrastinating and spend more time brainstorming. Easier said than done but it is ultimately the cure all of the issues facing every high schoolers alike. Alternatively, I could just stop caring about the grade. Most of my dilemmas arise from my constant need to get the A but really, I could just give up and write the same essay over and over again. However, that is not an actual option of mine. Instead I have to be Roger Davis. Not the about-to-die-of-AIDS Roger but the find-another-inspiration Roger. What is vital to my small, insignificant problem is the obtention of new concepts by getting out more. Roger found a muse, now I need to do the same. But is that possible when I am stuck doing all these