i cant believe what i've done now that i think about it . I always try to talk to her , but i know it's a lost cause . I did this to myself , i know that .. but that doesn't make it any better .. i've lost my best friend .
we met on xbox when i was like nine or ten , she was about 13 , more or less . I don't remember what game we were playing , but i think it was Modern Warfare 2 . At first she sat there on my friends list , as i did on hers . Then i did something bold , invited her . i know it doesn't seem like such a bold thing , but a little squeaker such as myself to talk to someone i don't even know is pretty bold . I guess i was just looking for a friend . And she was just that .
Over time we started talking more and more , & we ended …show more content…
“I promise i'll never leave you .“ . That was it . And we kept it for a while at least a year or two . the i broke it . little ol ,me broke it . I'm such a f**king dumbass i know iknow . she was the best thing in my life . i pulled away . and she tried so hard too keep me there with her but i just pulled harder . I was in a whole . A dark hole with nothing but darkness and silence , and i didn't know what to do . i knew she could help me , but i thought i wasn't worthy of her . she was so kind , and she didn't deserve someone as cruel as me .
I remember the first time i said”‘ i love you “ to her . it was in a weird and twisted way . We were talking and she left the party , and i sent her an evil message . “ You better join the party before i stick a knife up ypur but *whispers* i love you .” Bam haha , so sweet , right ? What a fool i was to mess this up .
After u pulled away , and then tried to come back , she wasn't having it . She met other people , better people . I got so jealous , so i got her mad , i did everything in my power to piss her off . Pathetic , right ? I loved her so much , i decided pain was the best way to get her forgiveness . and i had this bad habit of getting mad at her for no reason , well there was always a reason , i just didn't like sharing them . She hated that . I just wanted her to use her smart mind , heh .. My parents didn't like her because we said ‘ i love you ‘ to each other . it took her like a year to actually say it back
we met on xbox when i was like nine or ten , she was about 13 , more or less . I don't remember what game we were playing , but i think it was Modern Warfare 2 . At first she sat there on my friends list , as i did on hers . Then i did something bold , invited her . i know it doesn't seem like such a bold thing , but a little squeaker such as myself to talk to someone i don't even know is pretty bold . I guess i was just looking for a friend . And she was just that .
Over time we started talking more and more , & we ended …show more content…
“I promise i'll never leave you .“ . That was it . And we kept it for a while at least a year or two . the i broke it . little ol ,me broke it . I'm such a f**king dumbass i know iknow . she was the best thing in my life . i pulled away . and she tried so hard too keep me there with her but i just pulled harder . I was in a whole . A dark hole with nothing but darkness and silence , and i didn't know what to do . i knew she could help me , but i thought i wasn't worthy of her . she was so kind , and she didn't deserve someone as cruel as me .
I remember the first time i said”‘ i love you “ to her . it was in a weird and twisted way . We were talking and she left the party , and i sent her an evil message . “ You better join the party before i stick a knife up ypur but *whispers* i love you .” Bam haha , so sweet , right ? What a fool i was to mess this up .
After u pulled away , and then tried to come back , she wasn't having it . She met other people , better people . I got so jealous , so i got her mad , i did everything in my power to piss her off . Pathetic , right ? I loved her so much , i decided pain was the best way to get her forgiveness . and i had this bad habit of getting mad at her for no reason , well there was always a reason , i just didn't like sharing them . She hated that . I just wanted her to use her smart mind , heh .. My parents didn't like her because we said ‘ i love you ‘ to each other . it took her like a year to actually say it back