As a kid, I've never been one who went out and lived tried to live life to the fullest, I spent most of my time staying indoors with my video games and computer. At first it was what I preferred doing, since when I was younger I didn't worry much about making friends, for I truly believed that I had plenty of fun with technology, but as I started growing older, seeing most kids around my age being social and having a blast got to me. I, too, wanted to have fun like them. Time passed by quickly, and by the time I wanted to change and be more social, I was too timid and accustomed to my solitary lifestyle to talk with others. As middle school began and passed by, seeing all the kids playing around made me feel happy, since I felt that I'll
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During that time, social media was growing at a fast pace, which played a huge role on how I felt about my looks, since I saw what most others saw as "attractive" and noticed that I wasn't anywhere near as good looking, and although I tried to keep my mind off it since I was still growing, it still managed to make it slightly more difficult to muster up and talk to others. By the end of my middle school years, I managed to make a couple of friends, and I've also been invited to go out with them, which at the time made me feel fantastic, even though I never really got the chance to go out due to personal problems. I had plenty of fun during my middle school years, but even though I did manage to be more social and interactive with others, I grew more self-conscious of myself since my looks didn't change much, and as people say "old habits die hard".
Once I began high school, everything suddenly became a popularity contest, …show more content…
Having gone through a rough junior year put things in perspective for me, and I realized that I had to make a change as soon as possible.
It was the summer of my junior year when I began trying to make that change, for I knew that as I get older, it would only get more difficult. I started by putting aside any negative thoughts I had of myself and just tried to live life without thinking too much about what others were thinking of me, since that was a problem I greatly suffered from. Although it was hard at first, as I started going out more frequently, I found it easier to be around people, noticing that they had other things to worry about than my looks. Afterwards, it became slightly easier to talk face-to-face with other people, although it was still rather difficult. Once my self-esteem wasn't as low as it used to be, I began messaging people who I normally wouldn't talk to from school and tried to befriend them, which was extremely awkward for me since I never knew what to say, but I still did so. After messaging them, I then tried to talk with
During that time, social media was growing at a fast pace, which played a huge role on how I felt about my looks, since I saw what most others saw as "attractive" and noticed that I wasn't anywhere near as good looking, and although I tried to keep my mind off it since I was still growing, it still managed to make it slightly more difficult to muster up and talk to others. By the end of my middle school years, I managed to make a couple of friends, and I've also been invited to go out with them, which at the time made me feel fantastic, even though I never really got the chance to go out due to personal problems. I had plenty of fun during my middle school years, but even though I did manage to be more social and interactive with others, I grew more self-conscious of myself since my looks didn't change much, and as people say "old habits die hard".
Once I began high school, everything suddenly became a popularity contest, …show more content…
Having gone through a rough junior year put things in perspective for me, and I realized that I had to make a change as soon as possible.
It was the summer of my junior year when I began trying to make that change, for I knew that as I get older, it would only get more difficult. I started by putting aside any negative thoughts I had of myself and just tried to live life without thinking too much about what others were thinking of me, since that was a problem I greatly suffered from. Although it was hard at first, as I started going out more frequently, I found it easier to be around people, noticing that they had other things to worry about than my looks. Afterwards, it became slightly easier to talk face-to-face with other people, although it was still rather difficult. Once my self-esteem wasn't as low as it used to be, I began messaging people who I normally wouldn't talk to from school and tried to befriend them, which was extremely awkward for me since I never knew what to say, but I still did so. After messaging them, I then tried to talk with