Personal Narrative: How Death Has Affected My Life

The first time I was affected by death was when I was 29 only three weeks until my BIG 30. I was awoken by the call telling my mom my grandma passed away. I was devastated, but knew it was only a matter of time before she was to pass. I thought I was prepared, but I was not. Me and my grandma had a bond like no other.; I was her princess and she was my granny mae (my sunshine). She was a hand full, but I enjoyed being near her no matter if she was having a good day or a bad day. I could listen to her stories over and over; I just liked listening to her talk. My grandma had Alzheimer's and was diagnosed with lung cancer , and even though she was in remission she was going down hill fast. After she came home from her last stint in the hospital we all knew it was just a matter of …show more content…
I made sure I visited her everyday and everyday she was a bit worse. One day when I came to visit she was no longer in her chair, but in bed, and I no longer saw her in her chair. Now when I visited she was in bed and hardly awake. I talked to her and tried making my peace with her preparing to leave us. She finally had enough and left us to be with god and her family in heaven. After that call a little piece of me died with her. I grieved for a long time, along with the rest of my family, and we still grieve till this day. As I grieved I shut down emotionally, cried, became angry and lost ambition to do certain things. I use to bake for my grandma, but after she left I stopped baking. I use to enjoy to read, but couldn’t pick up a book and read. As for my mom she became depressed and a little lost without her mother. My moms grief effected us because she was quite depressed and it affected her daily life. It took my mom a good year to grieve and get out of depression. It tool a toll on all of lives without my grandma, we had to take it day by day. I have to be honest I have always been afraid of death and when my grandma passed away the fear still