Personal Narrative-Have You Seen God?

Have You Seen God?
I used to be afraid. Afraid of everything. Afraid to be called on in class. Afraid of rejection. Afraid of humiliation. Afraid to die. I used to be mad. Why me? Why can’t things go right just this one time? Life sucks. It turned out it wasn’t because of typical quandaries everyone faced, but because of a void I was carrying inside me. Without realizing it, I had let emptiness reside inside my heart. Nothing could please me. The pain, fear, loss, anger and extreme uneasiness were all a result of that emptiness. I was always told that those who find God find everything. I, at the time, didn’t even know God or was interested to whatsoever until one summer night. My grandmother and I sat in our foldable chairs having a conversation here and there, but mostly gazing at the stars. I asked her if she made a wish to the North Star. I never expected …show more content…
I didn’t realize it when God embedded it within me. I had started reading a spiritual book that was supposed to bring me closer to God. It told me to pay attention to myself. So I did. I kept an eye on my thoughts, actions, and my words. To my horror, I was a worst person than I thought was. Some of the things I said or did were so irrational I couldn’t help but yell at myself. I knew I had to amend myself. I had read the old saying that GOD resides in the heart of another man. Hurting someone is the same as hurting God. So, I became more cautious while I spoke. I became sincere. Everything I said was something I wholeheartedly believed in. I became honest and forthright. My prayers had changed. I didn’t talk to God in the greed to have him grant something. Rather, prayers began to originate out of true appreciation. My actions had automatically changed once my thought process was cleared up. Instead of trying to blame God for my problems I decided to fix them. I worked hard. I strived to improve myself each and every day. I chose goals for myself and made a focus for