Don't you ever wondered if I disappeared tomorrow would the world even notice? Am i even going to be remembered? Am i just a cookie crumbs in the bottom of the cookie jar only to be washed out or thrown into the trash can? I get a bit paranoid sometimes and i'm convinced that everyone hates me, my therapist says to talk to her more often or to have a journal to get over my anxiety and my feeling, but i know she is judging me. I know humans. The true face of human nature, dark, ugly, greedy, and terrible. At school i'm the one that makes everyone laugh look normal act normal and no one will bother you. But they just stare and walk in a crowded hallway. They're like seagulls, flying over me, judging me, and every single move i make the closer
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another moment was in math class. I swear all my classes are a curse. its like someone out there was purposely placing me in terrible spot. i just want to be normal with no one looking over my shoulder or anyone bothering or doing anything with me at all i easily freak out and when i need to do something in front of the class i swear i get a small heart attack. i haven't placed this part in my online journal yet. but ill place it in later tonight, after i watch the new episode of Steven Universe with my friend Desta, i like her name it’s pretty and unique. shes really nice. ive known her ever since we were little children. Sadly i didn't come here to write about her, but if i would have then i would be a lot, she is amazing, she can do the things that i can't. The amount of confidence in her is outstanding. This is what i'm going to …show more content…
“So, can someone tell me the solution to this equation?” she asked in the room, suddenly everyone was silent, even the boys in the last row who usually spent the whole class period talking or doing something stupid, “Samantha, How about you?” She asked while she pointed straight at me. My eyes sucked in, the stupid butterflies tumbled like a hurricane. my heart rate raised. i stared at her for a while. “Samantha? are you alright?” i heard little giggles coming from behind me. everyone was staring and giggling. “oh this is great, not only will i make my self look stupid up their but also down here, ill be the laughing stalk of the school, great”, i thought to myself, then i snapped back to reality, the cruel reality, and what were my first word out of my mouth “M-me?” I stuttered, I sounded like a buffoon. “just come to the board.” she sighed. I jumped up from my chair and hushed to the board, i quickly scribbled down my answer and looked at her. She looked at my work, then back to me, then back to the board, “oh, poop, did i screw this up? oh, poop poop, everyone is going to laugh at me, o my god. are they staring at me? they are totally staring at me! poop!” i thought to myself. “Thats right Samantha, you can go sit down again.” she said with a surprised smile. I hurried to get back to my seat some of the other students were looking at
another moment was in math class. I swear all my classes are a curse. its like someone out there was purposely placing me in terrible spot. i just want to be normal with no one looking over my shoulder or anyone bothering or doing anything with me at all i easily freak out and when i need to do something in front of the class i swear i get a small heart attack. i haven't placed this part in my online journal yet. but ill place it in later tonight, after i watch the new episode of Steven Universe with my friend Desta, i like her name it’s pretty and unique. shes really nice. ive known her ever since we were little children. Sadly i didn't come here to write about her, but if i would have then i would be a lot, she is amazing, she can do the things that i can't. The amount of confidence in her is outstanding. This is what i'm going to …show more content…
“So, can someone tell me the solution to this equation?” she asked in the room, suddenly everyone was silent, even the boys in the last row who usually spent the whole class period talking or doing something stupid, “Samantha, How about you?” She asked while she pointed straight at me. My eyes sucked in, the stupid butterflies tumbled like a hurricane. my heart rate raised. i stared at her for a while. “Samantha? are you alright?” i heard little giggles coming from behind me. everyone was staring and giggling. “oh this is great, not only will i make my self look stupid up their but also down here, ill be the laughing stalk of the school, great”, i thought to myself, then i snapped back to reality, the cruel reality, and what were my first word out of my mouth “M-me?” I stuttered, I sounded like a buffoon. “just come to the board.” she sighed. I jumped up from my chair and hushed to the board, i quickly scribbled down my answer and looked at her. She looked at my work, then back to me, then back to the board, “oh, poop, did i screw this up? oh, poop poop, everyone is going to laugh at me, o my god. are they staring at me? they are totally staring at me! poop!” i thought to myself. “Thats right Samantha, you can go sit down again.” she said with a surprised smile. I hurried to get back to my seat some of the other students were looking at