That fear stuck with me for the longest time, even despite it being incredibly stupid and making no sense what so ever. Every time I even so much as heard about the next big disaster film I would rush to my parents to assuage my fears, asking, “Can that actually happen?” and “That would never actually happen. Right?” with just a hint of desperation in my voice. They would reassure me, and logically I knew it was ludicrous to think such a thing, but there was always that voice in the back of my head that just didn’t know when to shut up. It would whisper to me at night when I wanted to sleep, in the morning eating breakfast, even at school when I was working. There was no escape. It also didn’t help that I would often find myself in situations where I would be watching disaster movies. Every volcano erupting, earthquake, tsunami or super storm would send me spiralling, days full of uncertainty and anxiety turned into a night full of paranoia induced nightmares. It was a vicious cycle that I didn’t know how to get out of. I only ever let go of the notion that the world was ending after it didn’t. Waking up on the morning of the 22nd of December 2012 alive in a world that had not imploded overnight I realised how stupid it was to be scared. It acted as the catalyst for me overcoming my fear: it literally disappeared overnight. Well …show more content…
I finally relented and accepted that I couldn’t deal with this alone, I told my parents what I was feeling and eventually went to therapy. Talking to a complete stranger about how I felt was strangely cathartic, but not only that, I gained techniques and learned how to cope with my anxiety and fears. My anxiety isn’t gone and I am not fearless by any means. But now, I can cope and manage through breathing techniques, controlled rational thinking, meditation and a host of other means. I never realised how much easier it can be to walk through life when you don’t have to carry a massive weight on your chest every