"The feeling of nothingness isn't the nicest feeling, then again, how would one know what it feels like, if it feels like nothing?
How does one explain what feeling like nothing feels like? Do you feel sad? Scared? Angry? A mix of all these emotions?
I could show you if you like. Just follow me to the edge of the cliff but beware, the ground can be slippery. I wouldn't want you falling into nothingness the way I did.
Before you get too close to the edge, let me explain what nothingness felt like when I was falling down. It felt like there was never going to be an end, unless I ended it myself. But instead of ending it there and then I kept falling, in hopes there would be some light at the bottom that would lead me right up to the top of the cliff. Almost instantly I saw a light. That light was my best friend Keith. He helped me up once I reached the bottom. But all lights fade eventually. Keith was kind of like the battery for me. Keeping me functional until he ran out of power. …show more content…
Walking around the house I used to call home once more, I take in every possible detail before entering the bathroom, the last room I will ever see. Opening the mirror, I took out my father's sleeping pills then close the mirror. As I grabbed a glass of water, I take a look at my reflection. Who knew something so sad could look so peaceful. Taking the lid off the pills, I take one out and roll it around my fingers for a bit before placing it on my tongue, then taking a sip of the water and swallowing it. I continued to take a singular pill every minute before I finally started to feel drowsy.
Looking at my reflection for the last time, I sat down on the bathroom floor. My eyelids were getting heavier by the second and I could see lights in the corner of my eyes.
"This is it." I said to myself. I blinked once more, before closing my eyes, and never opening them
How does one explain what feeling like nothing feels like? Do you feel sad? Scared? Angry? A mix of all these emotions?
I could show you if you like. Just follow me to the edge of the cliff but beware, the ground can be slippery. I wouldn't want you falling into nothingness the way I did.
Before you get too close to the edge, let me explain what nothingness felt like when I was falling down. It felt like there was never going to be an end, unless I ended it myself. But instead of ending it there and then I kept falling, in hopes there would be some light at the bottom that would lead me right up to the top of the cliff. Almost instantly I saw a light. That light was my best friend Keith. He helped me up once I reached the bottom. But all lights fade eventually. Keith was kind of like the battery for me. Keeping me functional until he ran out of power. …show more content…
Walking around the house I used to call home once more, I take in every possible detail before entering the bathroom, the last room I will ever see. Opening the mirror, I took out my father's sleeping pills then close the mirror. As I grabbed a glass of water, I take a look at my reflection. Who knew something so sad could look so peaceful. Taking the lid off the pills, I take one out and roll it around my fingers for a bit before placing it on my tongue, then taking a sip of the water and swallowing it. I continued to take a singular pill every minute before I finally started to feel drowsy.
Looking at my reflection for the last time, I sat down on the bathroom floor. My eyelids were getting heavier by the second and I could see lights in the corner of my eyes.
"This is it." I said to myself. I blinked once more, before closing my eyes, and never opening them