Sleep paralysis
There was once a time where I almost lost total control of my life, where I almost let the demons in my head crush and bully me into submission. The experience of losing control of my body almost every night caused me to be terrified of sleeping to the point of where I would stay awake many nights just so I wouldn’t see the monsters that lived inside my head. I lost my comfort, a part of my sanity, and a part of myself that I will never get back.
Sleep paralysis is witnessing terrifying hallucinations that make you tremble with fear and losing the ability to scream out for help. It happened to me almost every night when I was younger. I would see shadows darting around, hear strange noises, and occasionally felt like I was being strangled, but there was one particular instance that has haunted me to this very day; I still get chills when I recall that moment. I was 9 years old when it happened. I was dreading going to sleep, concurrent with every other night for the past 2 years since my first encounter. But this particular night was different. I was running a fever of 103°. After my failed attempts of stalling my bedtime, my mom tucked me in as usual, saying “Good night, sleep tight. Don't let the bedbugs bite, and if they do, grab a shoe, and beat them ‘til they're black and blue.”
As she was turning around to leave, I started to …show more content…
My brain is “always on high alert” according to my doctor, nevertheless, it has kept me safe. I don't trust strangers, I take notice of my surroundings and notice conditions that appear to be suspicious. It has taught me how to reflect logically and know when an event is truly happening in reality or if it's just my mind playing tricks on me. Not all monsters hide in your closet, or under your bed. Some monsters live in your
There was once a time where I almost lost total control of my life, where I almost let the demons in my head crush and bully me into submission. The experience of losing control of my body almost every night caused me to be terrified of sleeping to the point of where I would stay awake many nights just so I wouldn’t see the monsters that lived inside my head. I lost my comfort, a part of my sanity, and a part of myself that I will never get back.
Sleep paralysis is witnessing terrifying hallucinations that make you tremble with fear and losing the ability to scream out for help. It happened to me almost every night when I was younger. I would see shadows darting around, hear strange noises, and occasionally felt like I was being strangled, but there was one particular instance that has haunted me to this very day; I still get chills when I recall that moment. I was 9 years old when it happened. I was dreading going to sleep, concurrent with every other night for the past 2 years since my first encounter. But this particular night was different. I was running a fever of 103°. After my failed attempts of stalling my bedtime, my mom tucked me in as usual, saying “Good night, sleep tight. Don't let the bedbugs bite, and if they do, grab a shoe, and beat them ‘til they're black and blue.”
As she was turning around to leave, I started to …show more content…
My brain is “always on high alert” according to my doctor, nevertheless, it has kept me safe. I don't trust strangers, I take notice of my surroundings and notice conditions that appear to be suspicious. It has taught me how to reflect logically and know when an event is truly happening in reality or if it's just my mind playing tricks on me. Not all monsters hide in your closet, or under your bed. Some monsters live in your