How My Childhood Changed My Life

When you think about your childhood, you think about all the birthday parties and the smiles. My childhood was the complete opposite from the smiles and parties. I was bullied all of my childhood through seventh grade when it finally stopped. For anyone who suffered from bullies or had a difficult childhood I want you to know you are not alone. One day my seventh grade year my life changed for the worst. I had become depressed and distant from my family, I wanted to be alone and was thinking horrible things out my life. I don't think my family noticed my personality change until it was to late. While laying awake at night I could hear a voice in my head telling me the negative things, the same things bullies told me everyday for years. After a couple days of just shutting out the voice I started to become a person I didn't recognize. At first I just lost my appetite, then it escalated to not eating for a few days. Every time I would try to eat anything, even my favorite ice-cream, I would feel sick to my stomach. As the days went on the voice in my head was telling me that the world would be a better place without me. I didn't take the thoughts seriously until it was to late. I finally cracked. I didn't think that …show more content…
After five days I would finally know what was wrong with me. I was diagnosed with severe OCD ( Obsessive Compulsive Disorder). I was required to go to counseling and was put on a medication. I am still on a calming prescription and another to help me sleep at night. Every once in a while I will have a nightmare that will make my heart race and take me back to that awful time. OCD is different in every person, for others, their OCD might be to flip a light switch several times, or maybe be paranoid about germs. My therapist Heather told me I had one of the rarest and most severe forms, lying. When my family found out what kind I had they didn't