My First Memories Research Paper

Okay so my life has been pretty fucked up ill admit. One of my first memories that i can recall is cheyenne being born, but i only remember looking at her through the tubey box thing. But if im being honest my true first memory is when cheyennes dad molested me. Then my life just turned to a series of family related drama. I learned to be head strong and independent very early on. Also i learned to pick my battles to subtly fight for survival. All in all my childhood was pretty good. Grew up in the rurals of west tennessee, had summers outside, friends, family, and i never fell for my troubles. well things started to change at what seemed like an incredulous rate. My mom started dating, but it wasnt really dating. She was hoeing around im not …show more content…
when i do this my fingers are met with blood, lots of blood. I instantly am met with the cold reality of what has occured pre-blackout. i then turn to see hunter crying on the phone with his mom. Ill never forget how distraught he looked. I then wake up once more with one of jasmines family members putting a pillow under my neck. After this there is some gaps in my memory, but ill try my best.i wake up and suddenly everything fades away, there is no wreck, theres nothing except for the sky and peace. i think i imagined this but i thought i could even see the miniscule details of the rain drops. I remember my mom being there telling me everything was going to be okay, but i already knew that i was just worried about jasmine. I wasnt in pain or anything just there. My mom kept staring below my waist line, but unfortunately i couldnt move my neck to see where or what she was so furiously focusing her attention to. Although i remember trying to move my leg and it felt so surreal, its quite impossible to accurately explain. It felt almost as though there was a hole in the ground and when i moved my leg it went below the ground into that …show more content…
The next day Haley and them came to visit. I had never wanted to see haley and patrick so much in my life. Haley even went with me for my...cat scan? I think it was a cat scan. I also felt pain then but it was very brief. I dont clearly recall anything after that...only blips and moments. I remember when they made me get out of bed the first time and it was incredible. I knew how to walk obviously, but i just couldnt get my muscles to cooperate with my know-how. I had muscle memory, but weak muscles. I also remember worrying about jasmine alot. And i was in a wheel chair and we went around Vanderbuilt. I remember the stage which had flowers that had something to do with dolly parton. And i think what i liked most was the koi fish. And the historic statues and memos that were included. One thing that stands out to me was that whenever i would here my grandmother i would amost be in tears her voice just annoyed my nerves to no end. She just yapped so much i couldnt handle it. And then they told me that i could go home. We had to wait for nanny to get the car and i felt so weird. I was in a vulnerable situation against able