You are my soul... I will still fight for you my beloved. You are my love and I will fight for my love
I am a loser at explaining my feelings. And my beloved Puja, who else but you know that better. There have been many instances when I let you down. Instead of accepting my faults, all I did was getting angry at you. I have been immature all these years. Rather than using my judgement I trusted my emotions, other peoples words,etc. and ruined our love life.
When I proposed you for the relationship, I had promised a beautiful life for you. However, I couldn't keep up to the promises. Like a coward I kept on making excuses and explanations for my failure and incapability.
But, now it won't be like that. The horrible events …show more content…
I now truly understand the real meaning of life and your importance. Rather than fulfilling my responsibility, I kept nagging and remained weak. I was afraid of getting out of my comfort zone. But, now my eyes are opened. The pain that this past year has given me unlocked my inner voice. I realized the extent of potential that I have. Now, I have stepped out of the comfort zone and started my journey to fulfill the promises that I had given to you.
With regard to the relationship, I made a self analysis. Alone, without anybodies comment or criticism. I looked back at life and reflected upon those 3 years when we were together. I reflected on all those great, happy and precious moments that we spent together. I remembered all those beautiful smiles that you gave me. The sparkle in your eyes, your cute dimples, your warm hands. Your beautiful voice still resonates in my ears.
My beloved. I confess my guilt. I am terribly ashamed for letting you down. Rather than showing courage, I wasted lot of precious time. Like a fool I got influenced by others.
I don't care what Kratika, Shikha, Sagar, Rohit Bandooni, Payal, Rajan, Teena Mathews, Pooja Hooda, Priya Yadav, Gaurav Ranpatia or anybody else has told about you. All of them only screwed …show more content…
Even after my nasty behaviors you stood by me. You were my true friend. Even though you would act rudely to me at times, even though you had to endure my childish tantrums and at times my bad behaviors, you loved me. You gave me more love than that I really deserved. You showered upon me so much love, care and affection than what I actually deserve. I feel so low in front of you my beloved. Even if I do anything for you, it will never match the eternal love that you gave me. You always sympathized with me.
You gave everything for this relationship. You resisted the problems with all your strength to keep our relationship going. But, I failed you. When you needed me the most, when you found yourself lonely, troubled, desolate and in need of love, I gave you pain instead. I must have realized your parents point of views as well. I must have stood in their place and asked myself what I would have done if such a similar situation happened to our daughter. I should have thought like a father.
My beloved, you are the real treasure that I can ever get in my life-time.It is said that the troubles and adversities make us realize the true worth of the people in our life. The nasty events that happened in 2014 made me realize your true