Why I Hate Me Analysis

I Hate U I love U

I’m a normal sixteen year old girl with boy drama, friend drama, and family drama. I have insecurities and flaws, but then again, what teenage girl doesn’t. I keep my thoughts and feelings trapped inside my head. I’ve mastered hiding my emotions because I don’t like the attention. When I do tell people about my problems I feel like they think i’m just being over dramatic and seeking attention. I usually just keep my feelings to myself to play it safe. I have trust issues because of a boy, and issues with controlling my anger. It’s just when something goes wrong or makes me mad I get really upset. I get so heated in the moment i can’t control it. It’s weird because after awhile i will start to calm down and I’ll be perfectly fine again. I’ve tried to tell my mom about it, but she just laughs and doesn’t take me seriously. She doesn’t understand that when i get mad I do things I regret when i’m over It, I have ways of controlling my stress. I can’t really put that in a school essay so I’ll use my code word, bubble gum. Sleeping at night is the worst part. It scares me sometimes to be honest, I get so upset because I start to think …show more content…
My New Year night might have not been the best, but that’s only because I ended up throwing up in front of a lot of people. I ended up going home around one in the morning because i called my mom to pick me up. I’ve met so many new people in the past month or so. I don’t even know how or where these people even came from, but they’re funny so I guess I call them my “friends” in some type of way. Plus it all feels like a new start and I think I needed that. I go out more and do more activities with my friends now instead of going home everyday and crying like i use too. I feel less stressed out than ever. I learned a lot in just two months about myself and people around me. I can finally say I’m happy and I realized not everybody I lose is a