Now, I know giving up on something isn’t a big deal but it’s a huge deal when pain makes you want cut yourself to death.
Yes, I admit it I cut myself, I had cut away the pain, and I had cut the harsh words out of my life. I wanted to carved those harsh words out of my plain white skin to show I wasn’t weak and that I could handle pain and the way to do that was fight it with more pain, with one line at a time. At first, I thought about where I hid the rusty blade when the lies started. Then thought about my parents and what would the say about the lines, the blade, and my happiness. Next, I started to panic about the two pains, like what if carving lines didn’t help get rid of the pain itself. What if slicing my skin open little by little shows that I’m afraid to stick up for myself? Finally, before I changed my mind I took that dirty old