Good at nothing, never finished Tae Kwan do, can't play guitar well, can't sing, can't dance, can't even type right, an idiot, can't understand anything taught, can't spell, ugly, never had a girlfriend, can't make new friends, antisocial, ugly, everyone thinks I'm weird, I',m weird, no talent, never been good at anything, no passion, procrastinate, delinquent, no sense of humor, stupid, disappoint everyone.
stupid idiot that can't see all the stuff that I have and only focuses on what I lack or don't have, but I'm not good at anything or at least I can't think of any. why should I be here or why should I do anything if it means nothing
why should I become anything or advance anywhere in life if I can't go through it with anyone
school and …show more content…
it is stupid that if I die everyone will act sad then but until then just a nuisance, my family, and everyone just looks at me and stares like I'm a weirdo or I'm a ghost-like they are just scared of me, then afterward they all treat me like I'm a retard. maybe I am don't know anymore. I don't know what to type anymore I wouldn't even write a letter if I did kill myself
id just do it and leave this I guess, they would all read it and maybe feel bad I don't know, if they read it now they'd probably send me to a hospital pump me full of drugs and then send me off. and yeah they may help
but why can't I be normal? why can't I am one of the happy kids that their parents adore and cherish? no, I just get a weird look and get a door slammed in frustration because of my affliction.
there are so many people who actually kill themselves but I just think about it and feel like doing it sometimes, but it's just for a few seconds, then its just back to being sad or depressed or some fucking fuck thing.
I'm so fucking weird, I don't curse in real life but I do it here in my head, why am I still nice to people? I've been nice to people all of my life, probably because I was trying to get a friend or a girlfriend, but I just get a thank …show more content…
I just want someone to talk to that actually cares about me. and that why I might just want a girlfriend, not because of kissing or sex or any of that stupid stuff. just to have someone to talk to that actually cares, I'm not even trying to be self-centered, maybe crazy or insane or something, but I thought that finding someone to talk to and find an outlet for stress or something was okay. I don't know but if I do show this to someone I don't know what they will end up thinking. most likely it will end with me being in a hospital and them everyone thinking I'm even weirder. I'm stupid, I'm an idiot and I will never amount up to anything, I don't know how or why I'm in early college, I don't know how I got accepted, I don't know why anyone would ever believe in me, I will never be anything and this whole thing that I have written is the
stupid idiot that can't see all the stuff that I have and only focuses on what I lack or don't have, but I'm not good at anything or at least I can't think of any. why should I be here or why should I do anything if it means nothing
why should I become anything or advance anywhere in life if I can't go through it with anyone
school and …show more content…
it is stupid that if I die everyone will act sad then but until then just a nuisance, my family, and everyone just looks at me and stares like I'm a weirdo or I'm a ghost-like they are just scared of me, then afterward they all treat me like I'm a retard. maybe I am don't know anymore. I don't know what to type anymore I wouldn't even write a letter if I did kill myself
id just do it and leave this I guess, they would all read it and maybe feel bad I don't know, if they read it now they'd probably send me to a hospital pump me full of drugs and then send me off. and yeah they may help
but why can't I be normal? why can't I am one of the happy kids that their parents adore and cherish? no, I just get a weird look and get a door slammed in frustration because of my affliction.
there are so many people who actually kill themselves but I just think about it and feel like doing it sometimes, but it's just for a few seconds, then its just back to being sad or depressed or some fucking fuck thing.
I'm so fucking weird, I don't curse in real life but I do it here in my head, why am I still nice to people? I've been nice to people all of my life, probably because I was trying to get a friend or a girlfriend, but I just get a thank …show more content…
I just want someone to talk to that actually cares about me. and that why I might just want a girlfriend, not because of kissing or sex or any of that stupid stuff. just to have someone to talk to that actually cares, I'm not even trying to be self-centered, maybe crazy or insane or something, but I thought that finding someone to talk to and find an outlet for stress or something was okay. I don't know but if I do show this to someone I don't know what they will end up thinking. most likely it will end with me being in a hospital and them everyone thinking I'm even weirder. I'm stupid, I'm an idiot and I will never amount up to anything, I don't know how or why I'm in early college, I don't know how I got accepted, I don't know why anyone would ever believe in me, I will never be anything and this whole thing that I have written is the