Personal Narrative: A Personal Integrity

So im going to tell you a personal experience. I will only tell this not because im bragging about it, but because I need the points to pass this class. So let me clarify that I 100% regret the decisions I took and wouldn't do it over again because its just not worth it. Ok, so this is the story of how I lost my privileges at my church. Gained them and lost them over again. Like a year ago I used to party allot, every weekend I would just tell my mom I would go out and party with some friends. And that just kept accumulating, I got drunk every time I went out. I hooked up with some girls at parties, it seemed like every time I was getting more and more involved in this kind of wreck less behavior. So one day I had this CrossFit competition, …show more content…
Actually, 1 year later I gained my privileges back and planned to continue progressing at church. So I did, some weeks after my privileges were back, this girl A.K.A. (A.P.) started talking to me, incredibly out of nowhere. I had known this girl for about 3 years and there was no attraction whatsoever. And now it seemed that she had this big crush with me. I couldn't believe it myself. It all started as nice texting, how was her day, what was she up to, etc… But as time passed we got more and more attracted to each other. We texted the entire day, and fell asleep at the same time late at night. Since I just had gained my privileges back I told her I couldn't have a girlfriend because I had bible principles I had to follow through my whole life. She agreed and said she didn't have to be my girlfriend and that we could just be together like in some type of “free union”. I have been so dumb and made so much terrible mistakes throughout this past 3 years. I regret so much this …show more content…
But A.P. returned… And she started texting me, telling me that she brought some things for me from the states. Right now as im typing this im full of anxiety, wishing I could just go back in time and slap my face to make myself react. I haven’t slept more than 4 hours a day, feeling im the black sheep, the dishonor of the family. I was so stupid, I payed attention to her and agreed on sneaking out of my house at night meeting her at her house. One thing lead to another, I suddenly without realizing became hers again. I just fell so easily on the trap. And as I said one thing lead to another, I ended up making terrible mistakes I regret badly. I ended up loosing every single thing I cared about. Some say a powerful man is the one that has nothing to loose. But I cannot find peace even in my own bed when im alone at