My boyfriend genuinely cares about me and loves me. He is a great boyfriend and he does whatever he can to make me happy. He’s always honest and loyal to me but I wasn’t always honest and loyal to him. Because of my dishonesty, my boyfriend and I now face trust issues that we didn’t face before I told him what I had done. In the beginning of our relationship, I cheated on my loving and caring boyfriend with my selfish ex-boyfriend. I was vulnerable and my ex was saying all the right things. I was young and stupid. I wasn’t sure what I wanted at the time but there is no excuse for what I did. I was afraid to lose my boyfriend who I later on realized that I was madly in love with. I was ashamed for what I had done. Every time he would do something
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He had text me repeatedly. . He once again thought I was up to no good. Knowing that he wasn’t going to believe me if I just tell him; I broke company policies, and I decided to send him a picture on snapchat. Nervous of getting caught, I quickly took a secret picture of our dining room and sent it to him with the caption “I’m still at work”. He still had a little bit of doubt. He began to believe me after that. The fact that he doesn’t believe me really frustrates me. I feel like I’m slowly losing him. Every now and then, I sit in my room and cry hysterically. I don’t know what I would do if I lost the love of my life. Even though I shed tears, I can only blame myself for the senseless actions I’ve taken. I knew our relationship wouldn’t be the same. We went from never having an argument, to having one every other day. I understand that my actions have consequences. We went from being like Kim and Ron, always trusting each other, to Tom and Jerry, always fighting, even thought our fights never got or will ever get physical. I desperately wish I could go back in time and change the past, but I sadly can’t. I still to this day feel sick to my stomach with what I did. My body aches, like a basketball player who just got done running drills. What I did is not who I am. I would never do anything like that
He had text me repeatedly. . He once again thought I was up to no good. Knowing that he wasn’t going to believe me if I just tell him; I broke company policies, and I decided to send him a picture on snapchat. Nervous of getting caught, I quickly took a secret picture of our dining room and sent it to him with the caption “I’m still at work”. He still had a little bit of doubt. He began to believe me after that. The fact that he doesn’t believe me really frustrates me. I feel like I’m slowly losing him. Every now and then, I sit in my room and cry hysterically. I don’t know what I would do if I lost the love of my life. Even though I shed tears, I can only blame myself for the senseless actions I’ve taken. I knew our relationship wouldn’t be the same. We went from never having an argument, to having one every other day. I understand that my actions have consequences. We went from being like Kim and Ron, always trusting each other, to Tom and Jerry, always fighting, even thought our fights never got or will ever get physical. I desperately wish I could go back in time and change the past, but I sadly can’t. I still to this day feel sick to my stomach with what I did. My body aches, like a basketball player who just got done running drills. What I did is not who I am. I would never do anything like that