Depression
As a child I always seemed to be carefree and happy, but in truth I was scared. I was scared I wouldn't be able to do anything to make my parents as proud of me as the middle sister had or I would let them down to the extent that the oldest sister had. I was constantly compared to both. I was never good enough to surpass one, but I was never as deplorable as the other. I never seemed to be who everyone else wanted me to be. At the age of eleven I traded school districts. I was in the new world with all of these strangers who didn't know me and didn't seem to care. I had lost all of my friends when I moved to the School of the Osage. To myself, I was completely alone. This feeling continued for the years that proceeded. At some …show more content…
I learned to never give up on anything, no matter how bleak things looked. Simple things in life don't always come simply; sometimes you have to work an incredible amount for them. Things don't come easy for everyone, but when you work harder towards a goal it becomes more rewarding to achieve. Everything in life has its disadvantages, but you need to be able to see the advantages simultaneously. I had to relearn that there was beauty and good in the people and the world around me.
I have learned through the love and support from my mother, middle sister, boyfriend and best friend. Through these four I have started to see the world in a different light. I have started to see the good in what is around me. They showed me that the way I perceived myself is not the way others viewed me. These few people are the reason for where my recovery is today, and why I keep pushing myself, every day, to not relapse.
Without my depression I would not have been able to discover some very hard truths about the world. I would still be trying to please everyone else around me and letting myself suffer. I would never have become as open minded as I am now about mental disabilities. I learned to love the little moments in my life and not to take any of them for granted. It has developed me into the person I am today and I am thankful for that, no matter how long and bleak the road here seemed to
As a child I always seemed to be carefree and happy, but in truth I was scared. I was scared I wouldn't be able to do anything to make my parents as proud of me as the middle sister had or I would let them down to the extent that the oldest sister had. I was constantly compared to both. I was never good enough to surpass one, but I was never as deplorable as the other. I never seemed to be who everyone else wanted me to be. At the age of eleven I traded school districts. I was in the new world with all of these strangers who didn't know me and didn't seem to care. I had lost all of my friends when I moved to the School of the Osage. To myself, I was completely alone. This feeling continued for the years that proceeded. At some …show more content…
I learned to never give up on anything, no matter how bleak things looked. Simple things in life don't always come simply; sometimes you have to work an incredible amount for them. Things don't come easy for everyone, but when you work harder towards a goal it becomes more rewarding to achieve. Everything in life has its disadvantages, but you need to be able to see the advantages simultaneously. I had to relearn that there was beauty and good in the people and the world around me.
I have learned through the love and support from my mother, middle sister, boyfriend and best friend. Through these four I have started to see the world in a different light. I have started to see the good in what is around me. They showed me that the way I perceived myself is not the way others viewed me. These few people are the reason for where my recovery is today, and why I keep pushing myself, every day, to not relapse.
Without my depression I would not have been able to discover some very hard truths about the world. I would still be trying to please everyone else around me and letting myself suffer. I would never have become as open minded as I am now about mental disabilities. I learned to love the little moments in my life and not to take any of them for granted. It has developed me into the person I am today and I am thankful for that, no matter how long and bleak the road here seemed to