Fear- Definition noun an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.
Pain- Definition noun physical suffering or discomfort caused by illness or injury.
“The weight of a simple human emotion ways me down more than the pain ever did. The pain, it’s determined and demanding, but I’m okay…” - Troye Sivan (The Fault In Our Stars)
The definition of pain is the physical suffering caused by illness or injury. So, why does it hurt so bad?
When I was younger, every time I cried, my parents would tell me ‘Everything will be okay’ and, for the most part, everything was. Until, that night. The night I met my worse nightmare. He walked into my house wearing a blue and white striped …show more content…
That was the moment I started eating “healthy” and sometimes not at all.
“I knew you would choose the right thing. I can’t have you fat for tonight.” He said walking into his kitchen.
“What happens tonight?” I yelled from the living room. “It’s a surprise.” He yelled back
When we got done eating he told me to go up stairs and wait for him. I did just that. I didn’t have to wait very long, though. After a couple of minutes he came walking up the stairs, placing a hand on my shoulder and leading me into a room, I presumed to be his. That night he did the unthinkable. But, 10 year old me didn’t know what sex was, let alone rape. So, what was I supposed to do? Exactly, nothing. Which ended up in my favor because the next time I came over I was told to keep my mouth shut about anything and everything that happened at his house.
Every other week after that Brad would offer to babysit me and my parents would agree. Until, one day, I threw a fit about going. I had a birthday party to go to, which was the first one I had ever been invited to. So, naturally I begged my father not to make me go. As a response he asked if I had a good reason and I had let it slip that Brad had been hurting me with his penis. At first my dad looked sad but that quickly went away as he continued to push me out of the door and to start the
Pain- Definition noun physical suffering or discomfort caused by illness or injury.
“The weight of a simple human emotion ways me down more than the pain ever did. The pain, it’s determined and demanding, but I’m okay…” - Troye Sivan (The Fault In Our Stars)
The definition of pain is the physical suffering caused by illness or injury. So, why does it hurt so bad?
When I was younger, every time I cried, my parents would tell me ‘Everything will be okay’ and, for the most part, everything was. Until, that night. The night I met my worse nightmare. He walked into my house wearing a blue and white striped …show more content…
That was the moment I started eating “healthy” and sometimes not at all.
“I knew you would choose the right thing. I can’t have you fat for tonight.” He said walking into his kitchen.
“What happens tonight?” I yelled from the living room. “It’s a surprise.” He yelled back
When we got done eating he told me to go up stairs and wait for him. I did just that. I didn’t have to wait very long, though. After a couple of minutes he came walking up the stairs, placing a hand on my shoulder and leading me into a room, I presumed to be his. That night he did the unthinkable. But, 10 year old me didn’t know what sex was, let alone rape. So, what was I supposed to do? Exactly, nothing. Which ended up in my favor because the next time I came over I was told to keep my mouth shut about anything and everything that happened at his house.
Every other week after that Brad would offer to babysit me and my parents would agree. Until, one day, I threw a fit about going. I had a birthday party to go to, which was the first one I had ever been invited to. So, naturally I begged my father not to make me go. As a response he asked if I had a good reason and I had let it slip that Brad had been hurting me with his penis. At first my dad looked sad but that quickly went away as he continued to push me out of the door and to start the