Change
The cold metal on my bare feet shot a surge of chill through my body. I once again stepped onto that scale, and once again hoped for different results. Glancing down in anticipation as the digital numbers rose, I begged them to stop, and they did; 194, 196, 197, and finally settled upon 198. I did it, I finally dipped below two-hundred pounds for the first time in what felt like forever. At that moment I thought back to the jokes, the comments, and all the looks I received over the past 10 years and I realised that it all was motivation. Every time I had to fake a smile, or laugh at jokes so they felt justified because they were laughing “with him, not at him”, every time I went home upset trying to hide the tears, and every time I
The cold metal on my bare feet shot a surge of chill through my body. I once again stepped onto that scale, and once again hoped for different results. Glancing down in anticipation as the digital numbers rose, I begged them to stop, and they did; 194, 196, 197, and finally settled upon 198. I did it, I finally dipped below two-hundred pounds for the first time in what felt like forever. At that moment I thought back to the jokes, the comments, and all the looks I received over the past 10 years and I realised that it all was motivation. Every time I had to fake a smile, or laugh at jokes so they felt justified because they were laughing “with him, not at him”, every time I went home upset trying to hide the tears, and every time I