Every week, time after time, month after month, alone in silence with nothing but the view and envy that I had felt for that one hour, which time and presence wouldn't allow to go away. That freedom was what I wanted -being an outcast- not being forced into fake friendships because I had been conditioned from an early age by my peers to learn there is no such thing as a real friend. Mocking always filled my ears whenever I'd sit there during a Den Meeting; it was me, once again, subjecting myself to internal torment, bringing myself down. Occasionally, I'd be asked to get into a car, with them saying we were going somewhere “fun”. It never was. We would arrive, then tents would be passed out, of course with me always left tenting by myself.
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My family was in the middle of a move, so my boxes actually remained empty because being in that house was where I always was, all I ever knew, and where I always wanted to be. Despite my reluctance, the boxes were eventually packed, the old house sold against my will, and a new home found. That first Wednesday in our new town, we found a new Troop. This one was massive in size compared to the Troop I had previously been a part of, but that just meant I was even more ostracized and pathetic feeling than before.
Despite all this, the ranks just flew by me: Tenderfoot, Scout, Second Class, First Class, Star, then Life. Faced with the daunting task of organizing an Eagle project is now where I find myself today. It all just might have finally been worth it.
Reflecting back on those times, I now realize if I were to go back and do all of this again, I would have sought help from a counselor. What I have really learned from this is that nothing that’s worth anything in this life is easy, and that has taught me to be stubborn and hard-working, always completing my goals. In the future, becoming an Eagle Scout will give me an advantage and help to open doors which I might otherwise not have access to, like job interviews, or entrance to programs.
Truth disclaimer: Many of the above events have been dramatized and exaggerated for dramatic
My family was in the middle of a move, so my boxes actually remained empty because being in that house was where I always was, all I ever knew, and where I always wanted to be. Despite my reluctance, the boxes were eventually packed, the old house sold against my will, and a new home found. That first Wednesday in our new town, we found a new Troop. This one was massive in size compared to the Troop I had previously been a part of, but that just meant I was even more ostracized and pathetic feeling than before.
Despite all this, the ranks just flew by me: Tenderfoot, Scout, Second Class, First Class, Star, then Life. Faced with the daunting task of organizing an Eagle project is now where I find myself today. It all just might have finally been worth it.
Reflecting back on those times, I now realize if I were to go back and do all of this again, I would have sought help from a counselor. What I have really learned from this is that nothing that’s worth anything in this life is easy, and that has taught me to be stubborn and hard-working, always completing my goals. In the future, becoming an Eagle Scout will give me an advantage and help to open doors which I might otherwise not have access to, like job interviews, or entrance to programs.
Truth disclaimer: Many of the above events have been dramatized and exaggerated for dramatic