It is 5:57 am on a Wednesday morning and I am dreading the sound of my alarm going off. A sick sensation of guilt over and hate overwhelm me, and the only thought coming to my head is "wow, I really wish time would freeze." It feels like the longest three minutes of life and, I am in heaven and close my eyes hoping that I never have to get up. But, soon enough, I hear the screeching sound of some stupid Fall Out Boy song and know that I must face the day. I swing out of my bed some 17 minutes after my initial alarm and stare in the mirror, but the reflection does not present itself as human. The image is a distorted creature filled with flaws and it's screaming obscene phrases back at me. It usually ranges from "you're useless" to "you should
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I throw up my hair in a bun and throw together my uniform. Once again, I find myself staring at the mirror, and this time, there is a person staring back at me. impeccable hair, impeccably uniform, and an impeccable attitude; all the right things that a cadet officer must show. The day officially starts at 7:25 am, however, I'm at school by 6:40 am to start some of my tasks for the day. Upon arriving at the JROTC hallway, I'm met with "Hey, Cristal!!!" from my friends and "Good morning, Carcamo, make sure you finish filing these files after school." from my SASI (Senior Aerospace Instructor.) I smile, nod my head, and continue to the classroom where I spend the next 45 minutes helping my peers fix their uniforms. We laugh and revel in this busy morning together. At this moment in time, there's no …show more content…
However, that is simply not the case. Hope and change come in many forms and, thankfully, mine came in the form of a person. His name is Kelly and he's the reason that I have this opportunity to write this essay. He has believed in me from the start and pushed me until I was where I needed to be. I had never met a person like him before; for once in my life there was an actual living person who fully supported me and never left my side no matter what I threw their way. Through him, I found myself and I found the motivation to enhance my life and to never stop trying. I spent so much time hating myself that I forgot that I am the only one who controls what happens to me. My mind lies and plays tricks, but at the end of the day, I have to be the one who pushes through and makes it another day. With my best friend at my side and some long sought after inner-peace, I fought against every demon that dwelled inside me. I fought every day and I'm still fighting because I refuse to be a victim of myself again. It's still a struggle to get out of bed and I just want to sleep and forget all my worries. But, then, I remember how far I've gotten, and that if I mess up now, well, it's all for nothing. So every day I wake up to the same terrible Fall Out Boy song, I
I throw up my hair in a bun and throw together my uniform. Once again, I find myself staring at the mirror, and this time, there is a person staring back at me. impeccable hair, impeccably uniform, and an impeccable attitude; all the right things that a cadet officer must show. The day officially starts at 7:25 am, however, I'm at school by 6:40 am to start some of my tasks for the day. Upon arriving at the JROTC hallway, I'm met with "Hey, Cristal!!!" from my friends and "Good morning, Carcamo, make sure you finish filing these files after school." from my SASI (Senior Aerospace Instructor.) I smile, nod my head, and continue to the classroom where I spend the next 45 minutes helping my peers fix their uniforms. We laugh and revel in this busy morning together. At this moment in time, there's no …show more content…
However, that is simply not the case. Hope and change come in many forms and, thankfully, mine came in the form of a person. His name is Kelly and he's the reason that I have this opportunity to write this essay. He has believed in me from the start and pushed me until I was where I needed to be. I had never met a person like him before; for once in my life there was an actual living person who fully supported me and never left my side no matter what I threw their way. Through him, I found myself and I found the motivation to enhance my life and to never stop trying. I spent so much time hating myself that I forgot that I am the only one who controls what happens to me. My mind lies and plays tricks, but at the end of the day, I have to be the one who pushes through and makes it another day. With my best friend at my side and some long sought after inner-peace, I fought against every demon that dwelled inside me. I fought every day and I'm still fighting because I refuse to be a victim of myself again. It's still a struggle to get out of bed and I just want to sleep and forget all my worries. But, then, I remember how far I've gotten, and that if I mess up now, well, it's all for nothing. So every day I wake up to the same terrible Fall Out Boy song, I