"You only act indifferently to look cool." My friend once told me. Although he talked in a playful manner, his answer came to me as if a punch to my face. If anyone asked about my personality, I would highlight my indifference. I considered it one of my strengths, and until then, I thought it as my inborn personality. But the answer sparked a doubt about myself because it was true that when I was young, I tried to act such way in order to seem more mature. As I dug deeper into my mind, I couldn't grasp my own identity. Was I truly indifferent? Had I become indifferent starting from that habit? Or was I still acting? What seemed like a joking comment from my friend raised many questions about my personality and entrenched a question that was
