Why did Lexi buy the drugs in jail all she thought about is how she did not want to be like her mom, and knew it would cause more time in that despised place? To answer my own question, I believe she just felt so much pain where she got to the point that she was desperate for it to all go away. Smack is what all the prisoners called the drug supplier, named appropriately. Smack could see the pain in Lexi, which is why she went up to her and said, “I can make your pain go away” (Hannah 236). The author wrote the pain of Lexi as unbearable. I think Lexi just got to thinking about how she lost a boy she lost, she is where anyone wouldn’t want to be, she let herself go where she swore she wouldn’t, she killed her best friend, she had a child who she wouldn’t know, and her child wouldn’t know her either. All of these things seemed like the ways of her mother. The day she bought the drugs was the day of the anniversary of the day she killed her best friend. I think she took the drugs because all of the mistakes she made starting tallying up in her head and she needed to make it go
Why did Lexi buy the drugs in jail all she thought about is how she did not want to be like her mom, and knew it would cause more time in that despised place? To answer my own question, I believe she just felt so much pain where she got to the point that she was desperate for it to all go away. Smack is what all the prisoners called the drug supplier, named appropriately. Smack could see the pain in Lexi, which is why she went up to her and said, “I can make your pain go away” (Hannah 236). The author wrote the pain of Lexi as unbearable. I think Lexi just got to thinking about how she lost a boy she lost, she is where anyone wouldn’t want to be, she let herself go where she swore she wouldn’t, she killed her best friend, she had a child who she wouldn’t know, and her child wouldn’t know her either. All of these things seemed like the ways of her mother. The day she bought the drugs was the day of the anniversary of the day she killed her best friend. I think she took the drugs because all of the mistakes she made starting tallying up in her head and she needed to make it go