Orleanna married Nathan at a fairly young age where she had insouciant disposition yet her marriage wasn't something she agreed on “ I told him Aunt Tess was more or less needing an answer… the idea of marriage suited him well enough so that he owned it as his.” (195) This drives with the attention that even in the beginning she didn't have control and let others decide her life. After the Bataan …show more content…
I moved and he stood still.” (384) The tragic passing of her youngest had brought her the awareness that desperately was necessary yet that it occurred through the most extreme of circumstances shows just how weak she was. Declaring that it's her fault; she,not able to leave Nathan and enduring the dangerous Congo, with Nathan unconcern the entire duration of Ruth May becoming ill, not doing anything to help her children, utterly contributed to her provoking Ruth May’s death.”No wonder they hardly seemed to love me half the time-I couldn't step in front of my husband to shelter then from his scorching light ”(96). As the foremost guardian of the girls because Nathan simply doesn't have a enough compassion she couldn't do the job that every mother is required to do, protect her offspring. She acknowledges that her daughters blame her for making them endure Nathan's outbursts, “ How could you let him? Why? So many answers … All of them are faultless and none good enough.” (89) She can't justify why she doesn't have the ability to stop him that no reason can justify what she did not do and that she blames herself for it which shows that not doing is just as bad as doing it and Kingsolver created Orleanna to show …show more content…
She punishes herself throughout her life pleading for forgiveness.” I wonder what you'll name my sin: Complicity? Loyalty? Stupefaction? “ (383). She discerns what she did was wrong and even seems like mocking herself with the connotation of sin evoking religion which Nathan believes in blindly that it isn't black and white situation and isn't that easy resolve. Yet she occasionally tries to defend herself saying it wasn't the era for women to vocalize their thoughts and follow their husbands throughout the book, ”Conquest and liberation and democracy and divorce are words that mean squat, basically, when you have hungry children and clothes to get out on the line and it looks like rain.” (383) It's almost as if she's persistent to clarify why she prolong it to herself. This is her attempt to forgive herself,but she continues to deny it. Incapable to fight for her own family because of her fear overtook her to the verge where she no hope for forgiveness until the spirit of Ruth May comes down to alleviate the burden her mother carries.”Mother, you can still hold on but forgive, forgive and give for long as we both shall live I forgive.” (543) Kingsolver heightens Orleanna's guilt in order to emphasize, that she is the primary guardian of the girls, she shaped each of them, yet she couldn't save them, and never get the justification she