Hey Jax here, I just want to say that if this disease gets to me before a new heart does, then I'm sorry. I'm not going to sit here and get all sappy by saying that I'll miss my family or anything like that because that's a given. I am however, going to tell you what I'm sorry about, and I better get started before I'm too weak to do so. I'm sorry for being too weak to put on my hospital gown without requiring assistance. I've tried to put on a brave face for my parents, but I know that they see through it, they always have. What I am ashamed of is the way that I try to stave off death, when in fact all my attempts do is welcome it with open
