Observation In Upstate New York City

This project started with an feeling and experience rather than direct idea. Around october i went to the NYC from my dormitory in Upstate New York. On friday night i was supposed to meet a girl that i really wanted to spend some time with but as i found myself sitting underground connected to the subway station wifi waiting for her reply i realised that i'm not getting it. A wave of feelings covered me like a wave covers a surfer. I knew it's normal to be ignored as well as to feel lonely but this time feelings hit so deep that it made me truly realise that we're born alone, we live alone and we die alone.

Over the night loneliness grew around me like a mould, a state which inhibits contact no matter how badly contact is desired. I spent two days riding a subway with a desire to ride away and find a peaceful spot and just wandering around the city with my camcorder capturing scenery that seemed appealing to me and writing down most pure thoughts that came through my head at that time.

Prior starting this project i was using expansive dslr camera and at some point i thought that footage looked almost too realistic. I put it in the storage and took out my dad's old camcorder which records on mini dv tapes. When i saw digitalised footage on my computer i was surprised how raw it looked. It looked much more humanistic, nostalgic and dreamy. It was …show more content…
Bill Evans “Peace Piece” It's the closest piece of music i could found that represents feeling of loneliness versus being alone. You can hear him play two chords over the whole song while throwing some improvisations from time to time. And that's exactly what it feels like loneliness versus being alone: either being calm and constant or getting all the different feelings and emotions out of nowhere. One time Bill was performing this piece live and one member of audience told him after that it made him feel like standing alone in the middle of