Essay on Not Everything Around Me Is Good

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Not everything around me is as good as it seems. I use to see the world in black and white where everything has a right and wrong and nothing inbetween. Now, don 't get me wrong, I know bad things happen all the time and some people have it worse than I did. This my story and how I see the world as it is now. One of my favorite authors once wrote ¨Monster are real, ghost are real too, they live inside of us and sometimes they win¨ Stephen King.
My depression began when I was about 10 or 11 years old so I was probably in 5th grade I had these thoughts inside my head about death, they wouldn 't stop, the thoughts kept constantly telling me that “nobody would miss me if I were gone”, “ I’m not good enough for no one”, “nobody would care if I’d disappear and never come back.” I have never found out why those thoughts were inside my head, nothing bad was happening in my life and these were good for me but I guess that’s how it all begins with depression, one little bad seed plants in you and it starts to grow rapidly that you can 't even cut if off so it doesn 't spread anymore. Repression is what happened to me, my own mind blocked out the memories from that year and the next year that I was never truly to remember, up until the last year or so I was able to remember the events of those two years. I still can 't decided what’s more painful; remembering the past or actually living it.
Then the next year came around, I was in 6th grade everything was going smoothly. I never told…

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