“I ran from myself- using drugs, exercising compulsively, trying to find validation through sex and relationships” (Sheff 328). Nic had a difficult life using drugs, isolating himself from society, the real world. Nic used drugs to feel whole again, to distract himself from the struggles of adulthood. Countless times he tried to recover from his addictions but nothing ever worked because he ran away from his life, never believing in himself. Nic Sheff had a rough struggle within himself. Realistically Nic had an ideal life. He went to a prestique school, he was smart, he had a loving supportive family which gave him everything he needed to survive. Nic choose to go down the dark path. Nic chose to hurt his family by stealing, Nic chose to
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First, Nic loses his family's trust. Nic steals from his parents, girlfriends, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and friends. “I stole and justified it and stole more” (Sheff 56). Nic tried so hard to believe that he was doing nothing wrong so he shut everything out. Since Nic’s family’s had the inability to trust him, they kicked him to the curb. This brings us to the next struggle Nic must endure, being homeless. At first, Nic begged and begged to be let back into the house but his father finally put his foot down. “Dad, please,” I begged him. “I’ll stop, I promise. Please, I don’t need to do this.” “You can’t come home, Nic” (Sheff 17). After all, Nic’s father knew that Nic would not change, he tried putting him into rehab but nothing seemed to work. After awhile of sleeping in his car, crashing on friends couch, he finally realized he had nothing left. And when Nic realized he had nothing left, he believed that it was just another reason to use drugs. “I slept in a park. That was when I started turning tricks for the first time, really. I wasn't making a ton of money or anything, just enough to get high and not starve” (Sheff 57). In other words, Nic decided to sell cut meth, which is pure meth mixed with other substances to make the amount seem larger, to sell more. So as he is selling people bogus meth they want revenge on Nic. One of the most important struggles Nic must face all throughout his life is deciding to recover, but
First, Nic loses his family's trust. Nic steals from his parents, girlfriends, grandparents, aunts, uncles, and friends. “I stole and justified it and stole more” (Sheff 56). Nic tried so hard to believe that he was doing nothing wrong so he shut everything out. Since Nic’s family’s had the inability to trust him, they kicked him to the curb. This brings us to the next struggle Nic must endure, being homeless. At first, Nic begged and begged to be let back into the house but his father finally put his foot down. “Dad, please,” I begged him. “I’ll stop, I promise. Please, I don’t need to do this.” “You can’t come home, Nic” (Sheff 17). After all, Nic’s father knew that Nic would not change, he tried putting him into rehab but nothing seemed to work. After awhile of sleeping in his car, crashing on friends couch, he finally realized he had nothing left. And when Nic realized he had nothing left, he believed that it was just another reason to use drugs. “I slept in a park. That was when I started turning tricks for the first time, really. I wasn't making a ton of money or anything, just enough to get high and not starve” (Sheff 57). In other words, Nic decided to sell cut meth, which is pure meth mixed with other substances to make the amount seem larger, to sell more. So as he is selling people bogus meth they want revenge on Nic. One of the most important struggles Nic must face all throughout his life is deciding to recover, but