What is your biggest fear? Do you let this phobia affect your everyday life? My biggest fear was performing in front of an audience and I used to let this prevent me from doing what I love, singing. You should not allow performance anxiety be the cause of your discontinued performing days. It is December 15, 2013 and I am anxiously lingering at Ecoff Elementary School. Tonight will be the first time I perform on stage in front of hundreds of people; In fact, it is my first time performing in front of anyone. Although my dad inspires me to sing, I have always been petrified to share my voice. In order to get over my stage fright, I have to sing in the fifth grade talent show.The aroma of paint and glue fill the art room as I wait to be called
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I faintly sing the first verse, “You, with your words like knives and the swords and the weapons that you use against me---.” The crowd wasn’t booing or throwing things at me. I take this as a good sign. I continue to sing, a slight smile shaping at the corner of my lips. My confidence heightens, but then the faces in the audience began to turn in confusion. I keep singing until I realize that I have been repeating the same verse for the past twenty seconds. I freeze and my face is full of terror. I rapidly sprint off of the stage, burning tears cascading down my humiliated face. My friends who had already successfully performed rushed over to comfort me, “it was the track’s fault,” or “you did great.” . I’ve never felt this level of embarrassment, as I hope I never will again. Now I am worrying about how my peers would feel, but even more, I am afraid of the failure my dad would think I …show more content…
When I see my dad, I throw myself into his arms and repeatedly apologize. He pulls me back, wipes the tears off of my face and guides my family and me to the car. The next morning a note waits for me on the kitchen table.
“Dear Madi, Just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you. You getting on stage and performing was really amazing for me to watch. I cried on and off all night because I am so proud to be your daddy and I love you sooo much. I know you conquered a fear by getting on stage in front of a crowd (I still get nervous too haha) Keep on practicing and it will get easier for you. I can’t wait until we can sing together. Love you and so proud of you. Hold your head high!!! Love, One proud dad”
After this elementary school incident, my father suggested me to take chorus in middle school to stump my stage fright. Although I was terrified at first, soon enough, every time I trotted into Mrs Hardy’s chorus classroom, I felt like I belonged. The scent of new sheet music welcomed me every other day. All of the performance anxiety that overcame me at Ecoff on December fifteenth, vanished thanks to Maegan Hardy and my
I faintly sing the first verse, “You, with your words like knives and the swords and the weapons that you use against me---.” The crowd wasn’t booing or throwing things at me. I take this as a good sign. I continue to sing, a slight smile shaping at the corner of my lips. My confidence heightens, but then the faces in the audience began to turn in confusion. I keep singing until I realize that I have been repeating the same verse for the past twenty seconds. I freeze and my face is full of terror. I rapidly sprint off of the stage, burning tears cascading down my humiliated face. My friends who had already successfully performed rushed over to comfort me, “it was the track’s fault,” or “you did great.” . I’ve never felt this level of embarrassment, as I hope I never will again. Now I am worrying about how my peers would feel, but even more, I am afraid of the failure my dad would think I …show more content…
When I see my dad, I throw myself into his arms and repeatedly apologize. He pulls me back, wipes the tears off of my face and guides my family and me to the car. The next morning a note waits for me on the kitchen table.
“Dear Madi, Just wanted to tell you how proud I am of you. You getting on stage and performing was really amazing for me to watch. I cried on and off all night because I am so proud to be your daddy and I love you sooo much. I know you conquered a fear by getting on stage in front of a crowd (I still get nervous too haha) Keep on practicing and it will get easier for you. I can’t wait until we can sing together. Love you and so proud of you. Hold your head high!!! Love, One proud dad”
After this elementary school incident, my father suggested me to take chorus in middle school to stump my stage fright. Although I was terrified at first, soon enough, every time I trotted into Mrs Hardy’s chorus classroom, I felt like I belonged. The scent of new sheet music welcomed me every other day. All of the performance anxiety that overcame me at Ecoff on December fifteenth, vanished thanks to Maegan Hardy and my