Hijab. Many people can 't even pronounce it and call it Jihabi, Johab, Hihab and even a turban just because they think it looks like one. I don 't think it’s a hard word to pronounce at all, so when they say it a different way I feel offended as if they 're making fun of it. People ask me why I 'm wearing it, and "What 's that thing you 're wearing on your head?" obviously It wasn 't like I wasn 't expecting these questions, but I wasn 't prepared to answer them. I thought at least someone would’ve asked me "Do you wear it in the shower" but thankfully no one was stupid enough. My response would have been, "Do you wear …show more content…
That 's how I was feeling. My mind was running in circles. I was agitated about how people would treat me, how everyone will take it all in, how it would make me feel and how differently people will perceive me. It 's a strange thing being in the same school for 5 years and then all of a sudden, one day I come in looking completely different as if I 'm a new person. All eyes on me, looking at me strangely, whispers, gossiping and weird looks. At least that 's what it felt like, I felt extremely paranoid. I kept thinking to myself "What if people want to stay away from me, and my friends act like they don 't know me? What if they 'll feel embarrassed being with a girl wearing a ' 'turban"? It was just so many thoughts all at once, piling into my head, filling my brain with negative thoughts, and making me feel awful. It felt like I came into school wearing a chicken costume, obviously everyone would be staring at me then, thinking "That girls mental". I kept looking in the mirror thinking, this is not me, it doesn 't look right, and it doesn 't fit my personality. I mean I felt like I looked like a respectful young woman (I hope I do, and not like a weird girl who came into school wearing a towel on her head), but it just didn 't feel quite right on me. I see a lot of girls who rock it and try make it look all fancy and style it up, I guess that could make them feel more confident? Or maybe it just fits their personality, they might like fashion, designing things, and colour. I would probably do the same and doll myself up a bit with it, but then I 'd feel like I 'm the centre of attention, I 'm the talk of the school and everyone 's focusing on me, which I do not want, I don 't want to stand