TS: Graduating high school is my fondest memory up until today because it was such a long-awaited, unstipulated moment due to my mental health struggles, loss of identity, and loss of faith. All of my roadblocks have shaped me into the person I am today. If it wasn’t for the people and most importantly, God, around me that helped me every step of the way, I wouldn’t be as strong as I am right now. My whole experience with my mental health and loss of identity struggles made graduation ever more of an emotional, happy day. It definitely was bittersweet. Bitter, because of the fight I had to put up to ever graduate and sweet, because of the final outcome, which was walking across that stage receiving my diploma seeing tears in my parents’ eyes.
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I remember the first time I meant them, I was only thirty years old when I was being verbally and physically bullied for reasons I don’t know why. The second I meant them, I was at my lowest. I was in my room before school, ready to make a life-changing action that will haunt me till this day. And again, weeks after my time at the hospital, I begged them to go away because I wanted to resume a regular life but they would not leave. It resulted in me being so far behind in school that I was taking a few lower-classmen classes as an upper-classman. My dream of going to college was deferred and I had my mind set on enlisting into the Marines right out of high school. I let depression win in that moment I gave up and was a victim of their circumstances. We meant again, on my terms, at the end of my junior year when I had a realization that I was not going to be a victim of depression anymore. I was going to preserve and not let my dreams of going to college get deferred any longer. My senior year was the hardest academically but at the end of it, I have gotten my GPA from 1.6 to a 2.7 within a year. Depression is an old friend of mine that visits every now and then but I know I am stronger than them, that I will no longer let them pull me into my old ways …show more content…
I was just so confused on why God put me through the things that he did. I felt as if he forsaken me. That resulted in me ending up blocking him out of my life in my time Recently, I attended Freshmen Retreat ran by Campus Ministry at Saint Thomas Seminary. I remember one poem that stuck out to me and restored my faith. Footprints in The Sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty, is about a man walking on the beach and sees two sets of footprints, which belong to him and Lord, but when he is going through a time of struggle, he only sees one set of footprints. When he questions the Lord why he wasn’t with him during that time of struggle, he replies, “"My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.” This poem gave me comfort knowing that I was never left alone, that God was carrying me through every step of the
I remember the first time I meant them, I was only thirty years old when I was being verbally and physically bullied for reasons I don’t know why. The second I meant them, I was at my lowest. I was in my room before school, ready to make a life-changing action that will haunt me till this day. And again, weeks after my time at the hospital, I begged them to go away because I wanted to resume a regular life but they would not leave. It resulted in me being so far behind in school that I was taking a few lower-classmen classes as an upper-classman. My dream of going to college was deferred and I had my mind set on enlisting into the Marines right out of high school. I let depression win in that moment I gave up and was a victim of their circumstances. We meant again, on my terms, at the end of my junior year when I had a realization that I was not going to be a victim of depression anymore. I was going to preserve and not let my dreams of going to college get deferred any longer. My senior year was the hardest academically but at the end of it, I have gotten my GPA from 1.6 to a 2.7 within a year. Depression is an old friend of mine that visits every now and then but I know I am stronger than them, that I will no longer let them pull me into my old ways …show more content…
I was just so confused on why God put me through the things that he did. I felt as if he forsaken me. That resulted in me ending up blocking him out of my life in my time Recently, I attended Freshmen Retreat ran by Campus Ministry at Saint Thomas Seminary. I remember one poem that stuck out to me and restored my faith. Footprints in The Sand by Carolyn Joyce Carty, is about a man walking on the beach and sees two sets of footprints, which belong to him and Lord, but when he is going through a time of struggle, he only sees one set of footprints. When he questions the Lord why he wasn’t with him during that time of struggle, he replies, “"My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.” This poem gave me comfort knowing that I was never left alone, that God was carrying me through every step of the