Finally Letting Go
The dirty basement filled with laughs and talks of people after the dance. Scanning my eyes around the room to look for her. I’m halfway around the room when my eyes lock in. Filling the room with laughs and jokes like she was always known for. She didn’t say a single word to me; however, I know that I was seen when I walked through that old cracked wooden door. I grabbed my boyfriend’s arm while the thoughts “You can do this; You’re stronger than this.” rolled through my hard stubborn head. Or least I thought I could; That was until I could taste the salty tears that ran down my face. I knew It was going be a tough night, it always was. Everyone in that room knew who I was and I knew actually who they were. I could tell …show more content…
It started out adventurous, going to new places, exploring and constantly hanging out. It couldn’t get any better than this right? That all lasted for a good while until she started changing and isolating herself, then I started to be known as “Hailey’s Best Friend” or “The Bitch’s Best Friend”, This isn 't what I wanted whatsoever. Everyone saw her as the tall, outgoing, gorgeous blonde with long perfect hair, that was also the cheer caption that everyone loved. People constantly told us that we were “bestfriend goals”, so close and that they wanted to be just like us.” They always expected us to be together; attached at the hip. No one saw that it was all just a front, or that I was actually hurting and wanting out. I just never knew how to get out. She walked all over me, only coming around when she needed something from me. It was slowly tearing me away more and more on the …show more content…
They were all laughing and enjoying each others company, just like every friday night after the games. For years I thought I had such perfect friends, that it couldn 't get much better than what it was. When I finally started expanding and branching out of my friend group is when I realized I wasn 't getting treated right. I was blinded by so many. I never got to express who I truly was because of her. Everyone only saw me as a part of her. My walls finally came crashing down. I needed to let go of negativity in my life and start making myself happy. After long nights of sitting in my room all upset and thinking, I realized that once I let go of the friendship that was constantly making me so upset I would be myself and happy again. I had to free myself from the trap that I led myself into. There was no more holding back. It was time to cut the strings and say goodbye to the life I was
The dirty basement filled with laughs and talks of people after the dance. Scanning my eyes around the room to look for her. I’m halfway around the room when my eyes lock in. Filling the room with laughs and jokes like she was always known for. She didn’t say a single word to me; however, I know that I was seen when I walked through that old cracked wooden door. I grabbed my boyfriend’s arm while the thoughts “You can do this; You’re stronger than this.” rolled through my hard stubborn head. Or least I thought I could; That was until I could taste the salty tears that ran down my face. I knew It was going be a tough night, it always was. Everyone in that room knew who I was and I knew actually who they were. I could tell …show more content…
It started out adventurous, going to new places, exploring and constantly hanging out. It couldn’t get any better than this right? That all lasted for a good while until she started changing and isolating herself, then I started to be known as “Hailey’s Best Friend” or “The Bitch’s Best Friend”, This isn 't what I wanted whatsoever. Everyone saw her as the tall, outgoing, gorgeous blonde with long perfect hair, that was also the cheer caption that everyone loved. People constantly told us that we were “bestfriend goals”, so close and that they wanted to be just like us.” They always expected us to be together; attached at the hip. No one saw that it was all just a front, or that I was actually hurting and wanting out. I just never knew how to get out. She walked all over me, only coming around when she needed something from me. It was slowly tearing me away more and more on the …show more content…
They were all laughing and enjoying each others company, just like every friday night after the games. For years I thought I had such perfect friends, that it couldn 't get much better than what it was. When I finally started expanding and branching out of my friend group is when I realized I wasn 't getting treated right. I was blinded by so many. I never got to express who I truly was because of her. Everyone only saw me as a part of her. My walls finally came crashing down. I needed to let go of negativity in my life and start making myself happy. After long nights of sitting in my room all upset and thinking, I realized that once I let go of the friendship that was constantly making me so upset I would be myself and happy again. I had to free myself from the trap that I led myself into. There was no more holding back. It was time to cut the strings and say goodbye to the life I was