Being so young and so “in love” I didn’t see any problem in that. During the first semester of my freshman year, I had tons of friends, I was really friends with anyone and everyone, and I loved it. But soon, I was ditching my friends for my boyfriend, and started to ignore them. Soon, I had no one but my boyfriend. It made us closer, because I had no one, but him. I was so blind by the “love” I thought I had for him. But what I loved was the movie nights, and the pumpkin carving, and the date nights. I loved the good memories. But I didn’t love the controlling, I didn’t love getting interrogated, and I didn’t love getting told what to do, like I had a third parent. I let the love I thought I had, go on for 2 years. For 2 years I had lost myself. The relationship I thought was building me up, was actually tearing me down. So when it finally ended 2 years later, I was in pieces. I had no friends, I had no one I could turn to. Everyone glamorizes having a boyfriend as a best friend, but it hurts 2 times …show more content…
I was so broken that I thought I would never be put back together. But, during the summer of 2016 I met someone new, I started hanging out with my friends more and more, and soon I was fully back to my old self. I had all my friends, I had a new boyfriend, and everything was falling into place. During the beginning my junior year, I was on top of the world. But once again, everything fell apart. Once again I let a guy control me. Once again I was looking for love in someone who abused my love. This love felt different though, he didn’t have a problem with friends, but he did have a problem with me leaving the house without him. Once again, I was blinded and let this go on for about 9 months, until I finally had enough control to end it, with all the support of my best friends. I did great for about 3 months, until summer 2017 rolled around, and somehow I got in contact with him. This was not good. Once again he took control of me and we weren’t even dating. During this summer, I stayed home every night when he work or was busy. I turned down my friends, and was doing anything I could to please