Last weekend was Fall Break, which is why I got to spend time with you guys. It was super chill, and I really loved it. You guys are home. We can chill out, eat, talk, watch a movie, play a game, laugh, cry, anything. Thank you for that...for being home. I want to tell MC Mama T and DJ Alex this (WhatsApp chat insider), but I don’t know how. I guess I can say it just like I wrote it. I slept for the rest of the weekend. I was really exhausted from exams. I was also emotionally exhausted from missing my dad. I escaped CU for the weekend, but I was suffocated by grief, so the break wasn’t as restful as I would’ve liked.
My midterms were ok. I’m looking at Bs and Cs right now, which is fine. I just need the bare minimum to graduate. I’m trying …show more content…
Not well…It’s been a really good weekend, but I’m overall struggling. I’m not proud of what I’m doing with my heart and time. I miss Billy; my heart and thoughts deceive me; it’s a constant battle. I miss thinking about GOD in the morning, afternoon and night. I miss daydreaming and contemplating GOD. I think a lot about what’s the next bad thing that can happen. Who will die next? Will I make it to graduation? What catastrophe will strike? I’ve been thinking about the meaning and purpose of life; about how I want to define my life; about what I value. I’ve been feeling inadequate as a leader in IV. I’m so emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually exhausted all the time. There was a theme of “reminding yourself of who you really are” in your letters. Our identities are rooted in GOD. I’ve lost sight of that...My identity in Christ is not my rock anymore...I don’t know when it stopped being my rock...I want to start writing poetry again. I need to dedicate time to it just like I need to dedicate time for a devotional. I need to spend more time with myself to give myself a space to heal independently from my …show more content…
All the essays done? I’m really excited about Princeton. The friends I met from Princeton this summer are great. They seem really cool. Maybe im generalizing way too much, but Princeton doesn’t seem to have the air of arrangance and snobbery that CU has some times. I wish I wouldve let my mom in to my college experience. I kept it from my family because I didn’t know how to include them. Now that I’m applying to jobs, I’m trying to include my mom, but its frustrating some times. She doesn’t copletely understand how the job search works or what my goals for my career are. I still want to continue to include her, though. It’s interesting that CU and Brown are optional when at one point you were sure about them. I’m glad you have peace about the
My midterms were ok. I’m looking at Bs and Cs right now, which is fine. I just need the bare minimum to graduate. I’m trying …show more content…
Not well…It’s been a really good weekend, but I’m overall struggling. I’m not proud of what I’m doing with my heart and time. I miss Billy; my heart and thoughts deceive me; it’s a constant battle. I miss thinking about GOD in the morning, afternoon and night. I miss daydreaming and contemplating GOD. I think a lot about what’s the next bad thing that can happen. Who will die next? Will I make it to graduation? What catastrophe will strike? I’ve been thinking about the meaning and purpose of life; about how I want to define my life; about what I value. I’ve been feeling inadequate as a leader in IV. I’m so emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually exhausted all the time. There was a theme of “reminding yourself of who you really are” in your letters. Our identities are rooted in GOD. I’ve lost sight of that...My identity in Christ is not my rock anymore...I don’t know when it stopped being my rock...I want to start writing poetry again. I need to dedicate time to it just like I need to dedicate time for a devotional. I need to spend more time with myself to give myself a space to heal independently from my …show more content…
All the essays done? I’m really excited about Princeton. The friends I met from Princeton this summer are great. They seem really cool. Maybe im generalizing way too much, but Princeton doesn’t seem to have the air of arrangance and snobbery that CU has some times. I wish I wouldve let my mom in to my college experience. I kept it from my family because I didn’t know how to include them. Now that I’m applying to jobs, I’m trying to include my mom, but its frustrating some times. She doesn’t copletely understand how the job search works or what my goals for my career are. I still want to continue to include her, though. It’s interesting that CU and Brown are optional when at one point you were sure about them. I’m glad you have peace about the