Nanny's Monologue

Dale,

I told Gary, I wish dad was here, I was there to represent dad and support his brothers and sisters and Nanny. I'd learned most of my knowledge of all of them through the grape vine and I do not blame anybody but the uncontrollable circumstances. I do not want anything from them. I have letters Nanny wrote us along with good memories and pictures. I did not want them thinking I was there for anything other than representing dad and to support each of them, not to mention Nannie was always good to us. I want to move on together as a whole, "burry the hatchet" as mom said.

I took Amanda's last year(s) and death extremely hard, I am sure you saw. Atlanta is good for me, but I self medicated to stay in the clouds to avoid all of the pain and guilt I felt. …show more content…
It was the hardest physical thing I have ever done in my life and the best choice I've made. It showed me with enough discipline you overcome any obstacle and regain control. I didn't stop till the finish line, 3 hours later. I am not sure if it shook my head to much or not enough but I felt a release literally as if God snapped his fingers in my ear and said wake up its been a year, get it together. I started cutting back on everything and wanting to see how much I could