Being An Escapist

I am not prideful in regards to being an escapist. I do take ownership and accept responsibility for how this has played out for me. The definition of an escapist states, “a person who seeks distraction and relief from unpleasant realities, especially in the form of alternative mind concepts.” My mind often forms made up scenarios of how much better things would be “if only”. Currently I am in the stages of realizing how unhealthy assessing those daily comparisons can turn out to be. Opportunities at times create challenges and because of those I intend to shine a light on how they can be transformed into something enlightening. My vivid memories of elementary school consist of preparing for TAKS tests (state mandated exams). These flashbacks …show more content…
As embarrassing it is to admit, my senior year of high school I couldn’t name four public universities in the state of Texas, I indeed had no idea what A&M was before my senior year of high school. I state this to emphasize my lack of basic college knowledge. I fell into the very populated pool of freshman that were shocked after their first semester and became traumatized when finally understanding that this wasn’t high school anymore. The tragic academic aspect of my freshman year set the tone for my GPA for my remaining years at A&M. Here in college I process and understand material in class and while studying but the outcome continues to be the opposite when I get my exam scores back. The pressure to improve my GPA haunts me and is a constant struggle because realistically there isn’t much room for improvement. I consider myself a part of the first generation students who hang by a thread every semester because of the mistakes made their first year. Discouragement still sneaks up on me, so I constantly have to remind myself that the goals that are still achievable are graduating and eventually prevent first generations college students to descend into my regrets from my freshman …show more content…
I intend to make the most of my situation so I can at least get to the level of being able to properly make students aware of basic details that can improve their college career. For me this entire process would have been simpler if I just would have had basic knowledge about the entire college transition and how improve success for college while still in high school. I am aware that there are districts all over the state and country that have programs specifically to facilitate all this important information to students but they aren’t everywhere. Every year there are full rides distributed from this great university and there’s a portion of freshman students who lose them because of coming from situations like my own. There’s a great desire from A&M to diversify the university but another focus should be to keep them here. It is upsetting to know that my GPA doesn’t represent the hours I spend reading per week or the extra amount of hours I spend studying compared to someone else. The unhealthy obsession of my GPA caused me to step back from the fixation and turn my struggle into helping and advocating for those that I know will come after me with the same