It aggravates me that i had to feel so strongly for him, why him. I spent days thinking and racking my brain, i thought to myself why did it have to be my friend it just didn’t seem fair to be feeling like this. I had to choose between our friendship or our relationship and at first i will admit that i didn’t want one but then i got to know him and everything that made him what he was, his life, his emotions, he let me see a side of him that i didn’t know existed in a person and we connected i swear to god it felt like sparks were flying. I said it felt like, but that doesn’t mean they actually were, it was just me and the fact that i thought that it was two sided is just pathetic, i feel like a child being deprived from her favorite toy only to find out that it was never …show more content…
I hate that word i feel like every teenage girl uses it way too much, one second they are confessing their undying eternal love to one guy and a week later they have a new fuckboy and posting their picture on their instagram claiming to be together forever until death do them part. However, as a person who has never claimed to love someone romantically i can truthfully say that i love him, he was my best friend and my supporter through everything and to not have him by my side kills, but like i said i’m going to take it one day at a time, no one knows what kind of impact he had on me, i don’t think i even knew until recently and i believe that 's the beautiful thing about