The Strength Of Self Interdependence

Whereas my introversion lends strength to my independence, self motivation, and self management, it also cripples me when it comes to employing interdependence and since I’ve spent too much time in my own head, I also have trouble with developing emotional intelligence and believing in myself.
Interdependence feels like a dirty word to me. I rely so much on my independence that the thought of having to lean on someone else gives me goosebumps. I’d much rather do something completely on my own, with all the struggles that brings (even if it takes me three times as long as it would if I got the help of others), than ask for help or work with my peers. I’ve always been that kid to whine, “But I haaaaaaaate group work!”
I don’t know how to help other people and let them help me in return. On one hand, it’s something I’d like to learn (because I don’t want to die alone or …show more content…
I fall into despair when faced with challenges I’ve never experienced before, and if I don’t pay close attention, my internal self-talk becomes so negative that I work myself into tears, but I am improving. This summer, I told myself I was going on an adventure because I could do it, and I did. I registered for a ballroom dancing class even though I don’t know anything about it because I wanted to, low self esteem be darned! To improve in this area, I’ll continue to do what I’ve already been doing: pushing myself until I realize that I’m capable of much more than my negative feelings try to tell me. I’ll take classes I’m not sure I’ll succeed in, I’ll join student organizations and find ways to be a powerfully effective member, and I’ll try not to shoot myself in the foot when I’m presented with a new opportunity. Eventually, I’ll be doing so much awesome stuff that I didn’t think I could do before that I’ll have to logically accept that I’m doing pretty