My Happiest Experience
As you know, I am not always the happiest of people. The world can seem like a dark place and I don’t always know why. You have helped me in so many ways, and I am more grateful than you know, but, as you have figured out, one day it all became too much. The stress, the anxiety, the depression… it was overbearing.
That day I checked myself into an inpatient program, knowing I needed time to breathe and figure out a way to stop repressing my emotions. After all, this wasn’t the first time I was in this situation, but that story is for another time.
You met me in the emergency room and waited with me as they gathered my information. I don’t know if you knew how deeply frightened I was to be in this situation once again, I did wear quite the poker face. We sat and watched as other patients were processed through the system, and talked of the hospital as a machine, the nurses wearing just as much of a fake smile as I do on a regular basis. As they called my name and took me back and did their typical routine check-up, you stood by my side. You held my hand as I told the nurse what had happened prior to my arrival, tightening your grip as my voice quivered. You …show more content…
He was like a tractor, his actions and gestures were precise and automatic, his facial expressions seemed calculated. It all seemed to be routine, like he truly was a machine. I can’t remember him smiling once as he checked my blood pressure and temperature. He could tell I was anxious, even commented on it, and then sent another nurse to fetch me some food. I was brought a turkey sandwich with mayo and lettuce, a four pack of Oreos, and a chocolate chip granola bar. I couldn’t eat without feeling worse, so I asked for sleeping pills and knocked right