My First Day In My Life Essay

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I can remember my first day of high school as if it were yesterday. I was so excited to be one step closer to my dreams. I had been told on numerous occasions that high school will go by quickly and that I should cherish the four years I spent in it. I was very excited to go to an enormous high school full of so many other people like me. But, little did I know, the first two years of high school would be some of the hardest years of my life. High school effected my physical, emotional, and spiritual self. High school had a big effect on me physically. As freshman year progressed, I started to feel insecure. I didn’t look like all of the other girls, who were very tall and thin. I felt very out of place as I looked at everyone around me. I …show more content…
Before high school I was very fearless. I was cheerful, outgoing, and had a very unique personality. My sophomore year was by far the most emotionally destructive year of my life. One word to describe my second year in high school is controlling. I felt as if I were robot trapped inside a world where I wasn’t allowed to be myself. “Going with the flow” seemed to be the only option for me to fit in with the crowd. Popular kids controlled me because I didn’t stand up for myself. I always blamed myself for all of the horrible things people did to me. If someone told me I was annoying or stupid, I truly believed they were right. Every day, I tried my hardest to get people to like me. Sometimes I would even buy people things or do them favors in order to get into their cliques. My mind was consumed with the thought of being popular that I forgot about my true friends. I remember them always being behind me trying so hard to get my attention. Being popular felt like the most important thing to me. I didn’t do what I thought was right, just because I would be treated differently. High school greatly affected my spiritual well-being. During the last few months of sophomore year, I didn’t feel content in my life. Happiness was a feeling I rarely experienced. I couldn’t find a purpose in my life. I discovered I didn’t have an ultimate goal or dream in life. Thoughts of regret and what if’s filled my mind. I wanted

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