However, at the age of 12 my manipulation got out of hand because I had met …show more content…
Once he shattered my outer frame, I had no filter, projecting nothing but the truth. The truth seemed to be the most logical out of the options I had; sugar-coating doesn’t do anyone any good, except for maybe saving relationships with people. I was too wise for my own good. I was never one to truly love.
My outburst was due to flashbacks from the past. As always, in a situation concerning someone other than myself, I managed to unintentionally flip it so everything was revolving around me. My turbulent character drove him away.
It was at this moment when I realized that fate was never to blame for my past either. With him, I was too emotional, too manipulative, and overly complex. I was desperate to gain back his love, engineering myself to fit his exact needs, but it didn’t work. I wasn’t strong enough for his new character. Nor was I strong enough for Samm’s character. The two people who actually brought me a sense of happiness were gone, all because of my complex structure.
This revelation broke me. I was a machine; cold, heartless, nothing but a hunk of metal. No, fate had nothing to do with my misery; it was my atrocious character. My character brought this heinous fate; it’s my