Raced thoughts, feeling of euphoria, unlimited energy, and lack of sleep. These are feelings that I experienced and am well familiar with. I was confused and scared in a mind that felt like an endless tunnel. My thoughts never stopped racing and I felt like I was on top of the world. I felt peace and quiet only after finding myself a patient in a psychiatric hospital.
I graduated from Hoggard High School, class of 2012 in early June. That following August I was enrolled as a freshman at Cape Fear Community College. I was excited and eager to begin college because I was ready to start my future. In my mind I planned to attend Cape Fear and transfer to another university after I had enough credits. I was only 18 so I had not thought that far …show more content…
I panicked and put together a master plan to run away. I packed a bag of clothes along with some cash and called a friend to come pick me up. I climbed out my back window and into my friends car. I never looked back or thought about the consequences that might happen. I didn 't think about the fact that I was missing my finals or that I wasn’t acting rational. At that moment I was elated and felt like I ran the world. My only thoughts were that my parents were the enemies and I needed to escape. My friend, Megan, was trying to talk some sense into me and persuade to me reconsider my plan. She felt that this behavior was out of my character and that I wasn’t thinking rationally. I ignored Megan and told her that she was just like my family and was out to get me. She refused to drive me anywhere and insisted that I needed some help. I started to sob uncontrollably. I was then convinced that everyone would be better off without me if I was just dead. I told myself that nobody would care if I was dead. I ran inside and closed the bathroom door on myself. I grabbed a razor and attempted to slit my wrists. My wrists were bleeding yet I felt no pain at all. All that kept going through my mind was, “ Why am I not dead yet.” I found my mother’s medicine that she was taking to control her psychosis episodes and swallowed all the pills that were in there. I could hear my family knocking on the door but after a few minutes everything went black and
I graduated from Hoggard High School, class of 2012 in early June. That following August I was enrolled as a freshman at Cape Fear Community College. I was excited and eager to begin college because I was ready to start my future. In my mind I planned to attend Cape Fear and transfer to another university after I had enough credits. I was only 18 so I had not thought that far …show more content…
I panicked and put together a master plan to run away. I packed a bag of clothes along with some cash and called a friend to come pick me up. I climbed out my back window and into my friends car. I never looked back or thought about the consequences that might happen. I didn 't think about the fact that I was missing my finals or that I wasn’t acting rational. At that moment I was elated and felt like I ran the world. My only thoughts were that my parents were the enemies and I needed to escape. My friend, Megan, was trying to talk some sense into me and persuade to me reconsider my plan. She felt that this behavior was out of my character and that I wasn’t thinking rationally. I ignored Megan and told her that she was just like my family and was out to get me. She refused to drive me anywhere and insisted that I needed some help. I started to sob uncontrollably. I was then convinced that everyone would be better off without me if I was just dead. I told myself that nobody would care if I was dead. I ran inside and closed the bathroom door on myself. I grabbed a razor and attempted to slit my wrists. My wrists were bleeding yet I felt no pain at all. All that kept going through my mind was, “ Why am I not dead yet.” I found my mother’s medicine that she was taking to control her psychosis episodes and swallowed all the pills that were in there. I could hear my family knocking on the door but after a few minutes everything went black and