My Daughter Monologue

Today I did a horrible thing. After mother shot a deer and was carrying the strips of venison to the barn to smoke, I wasn’t paying attention and my mother was attacked. When I was able to grab my rifle, I looked down my scope and had Big Bastard, the coyote pack leader, all lined up. When I shot the rifle, I couldn’t believe what happened. An unexplainable accident occurred. My bullet hit mother’s thigh and took her down. Her blood sent the coyotes into a frenzy and I was left to watch. I hurried down the roof and jumped to the ground injuring my ankle, but all I could think about was my mother. The coyotes fled as I slowly approached, but their damage did not. Bite marks in my mother’s throat was no easy sight for me to see, but I knew there was still hope. …show more content…
What came next for me was very hard to endure. I had to scavenge clothes from my mother’s body to create a splint for my ankle. I stripped all of the useful Items from her and that was that. I spent the rest of the day in the basement lying in my cot thinking, sleeping. I don’t know what the future is going to hold for me, but it can’t be too good since there is no meat left for me to survive the upcoming winter. Daily chores will also become much harder without help from mother. Living alone creates a much greater threat of someone trying to take over my pond and the house. I will not get much sleep either because I will not be able to take shifts on watch with mother anymore. It will be just me, alone. If only my shot had not hit mother, maybe things could be different. If only I were paying attention and closely watching mother, maybe things could be different. This is a terrible guilt to live with, but that is behind me now. I have to look forward and stay positive if I want any chance at surviving through the winter. I guess I have to realize I am still better off than some people. At least I still have a source of clean