My current journey I question the word life. I question my past journey ups and downs and if everything happens for a reason. I also look at judgement in the world today. People judge others for being evil or bad and treat these individuals as if they have always been this way. As I look at my 20-year-old son today, I think to myself where did I go wrong. It takes me back to the day he was born and what a beautiful baby he was. He was a happy baby and I exposed him to love that I never received as a child. That was my promise to myself to make sure I always, no matter what, show consistent love. As he grew up he became challenging, not listening and throwing temper tantrums like any other toddler. He was finding who he was and learning from
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It was a very long journey of change. The change got worse before it got better. Needless to say, today as a mother I have done a 360. I have changed in a positive way and because of the change it has prepared me for my purpose. My purpose to help people. My son today is exactly how I was at his age and it saddens me. He is everything he hated seeing in me when he was growing up. So are human beings brought into this world “good” or “bad”? I truly believe in my heart and in my mind that every child is born into this world with pure innocence or as you would say, a clean slate. Once the child is born and is exposed to people, places, and things they become conditioned. I also believe genes have to do with how the innocent new born is able to react or handle things that life throws at them. Some children may be more sensitive than others and feel more than another child. Therefore, my son was born happy and positive, then he grew up exposed to life trials and tribulations which shaped him into the person he has chosen to become. He has chosen the path of destruction due to the loss of loved ones close to …show more content…
I remember how angry I was that I had to go to this program. It wasn’t me with the problem it was all my parents fault and they should be the ones that were getting help. I had to attend group meetings all day and speak about my problems. As the week past I began to enjoy talking in groups and enjoyed being there. I was introduced to tools to help me cope with why I was feeling the way I was feeling and learned that I am in control of my life. That institution, as well as the counselors gave me something that stuck with me my entire life. I may not have used the techniques but they were still in my mind to use at any given time. I also had many therapists throughout my life that taught me many skills to help me deal with my chemical imbalances in a positive way and prescribe medications to help in the process. Because of those people, I created a foundation of self. As I got older and experienced rock bottom it was then that I began soul searching and changing my life. It was all a process but it came to the point of needing to find out who I was and fall in love with her. I moved to a different state and started the new journey of change. Change is never easy but it took baby steps and a lot of reflection, and forgiveness. I didn’t know who I was at 38, or what I liked to do. I began making a bucket list and doing a lot of hiking. Hiking alone with my thoughts is the best therapy ever. As I did more
It was a very long journey of change. The change got worse before it got better. Needless to say, today as a mother I have done a 360. I have changed in a positive way and because of the change it has prepared me for my purpose. My purpose to help people. My son today is exactly how I was at his age and it saddens me. He is everything he hated seeing in me when he was growing up. So are human beings brought into this world “good” or “bad”? I truly believe in my heart and in my mind that every child is born into this world with pure innocence or as you would say, a clean slate. Once the child is born and is exposed to people, places, and things they become conditioned. I also believe genes have to do with how the innocent new born is able to react or handle things that life throws at them. Some children may be more sensitive than others and feel more than another child. Therefore, my son was born happy and positive, then he grew up exposed to life trials and tribulations which shaped him into the person he has chosen to become. He has chosen the path of destruction due to the loss of loved ones close to …show more content…
I remember how angry I was that I had to go to this program. It wasn’t me with the problem it was all my parents fault and they should be the ones that were getting help. I had to attend group meetings all day and speak about my problems. As the week past I began to enjoy talking in groups and enjoyed being there. I was introduced to tools to help me cope with why I was feeling the way I was feeling and learned that I am in control of my life. That institution, as well as the counselors gave me something that stuck with me my entire life. I may not have used the techniques but they were still in my mind to use at any given time. I also had many therapists throughout my life that taught me many skills to help me deal with my chemical imbalances in a positive way and prescribe medications to help in the process. Because of those people, I created a foundation of self. As I got older and experienced rock bottom it was then that I began soul searching and changing my life. It was all a process but it came to the point of needing to find out who I was and fall in love with her. I moved to a different state and started the new journey of change. Change is never easy but it took baby steps and a lot of reflection, and forgiveness. I didn’t know who I was at 38, or what I liked to do. I began making a bucket list and doing a lot of hiking. Hiking alone with my thoughts is the best therapy ever. As I did more