I Was Never Like This Essay

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I was never like this. My views on life, or what I see when I look around me. It was never like this. I am who i am because of the trials and tribulations i believe i was meant to undergo. When i thought i was by myself, i felt as though i was suffocating with no one to pull me up from what i thought i would never recover from. when i was younger i was never religious. i was raised in a christian home, but i never acquired the true faith or beliefs that my parents had. I always felt as though i was forced to believe in something i , myself could not put into terms. I always looked for truth, meaning, and understanding. That was why I could never accept my religion, seeing as though i was meant to believe in a god I could not see, hear, or …show more content…
This was the most hurtful and painful death I’ve ever had to experience. I was so angry with God. Why did He have to take away the good people of this world? Troy deserved to live through his cancer. I didn’t understand. When his funeral came around, and they laid him down into the ground, I felt something. It felt as though something was lifting me up. Though I was sad, I felt at peace. It later appeared to me that it was Troy being taken up. He was set free of his burden. It made everything clear to me. I may not always understand why things happen, but I know they happen for a reason. Troy’s death opened my eyes to the true meaning of faith. Because of Troy and the revelation I had, I began to read the Bible more,and becoming an active member of the church. I began to pry more, trying to rebuild my relationship with God. I was happy. That is something I never thought i would be able to say and mean it. I truly believe the events that took place leading up to the death of Troy was a sign for me to recognize the importance of a strong relationship with God. Religion is such an important aspect of life. It is a guideline. It gives hope to the hopeless and shines its light on the dark. It made me a into a new person, and for that I will always be

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