For my abstinence experience, I decided to give up Korean media for nine weeks. This type of media included YouTube videos involving reality shows of different popular Korean figures, Korean shows, and news involving Korean popular culture. I chose this habit because it has been an intricate part of my life for a few years now. Last year, I noticed that I appeared to have an addiction to watching Korean shows and other Korean media on YouTube. It reached a point where I was watching it almost every day and I was not able to get through the day without watching at least part of an episode. It came to a point where I was watching these shows during my classes in high school. When we were given a work day, instead of doing work, I would engage
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I had a few slips during the week of September 18th. These slips were caused by scrolling through the feeds of my social media accounts. Once I realized that I was slipping, I immediately withdrew from viewing the video and exited out of the social media network. During the nine weeks however, I did relapse four times. On September 20th, my friend was watching the Korean drama, The Heirs, while our study group was doing homework. I have watched this show before, and I was extremely interested in what episode she was on and I felt the urge to watch the show at the same time she was. I ended up doing just that. I got through about the first 30 minutes of the first episode before remembering that I had just started the abstinence experience. I realized that I had relapsed when I walked away from watching the episode to continue working on what I was originally doing before I slipped and turned on the drama. I tried justify my use thinking that watching the show was a normal thing for me and so I sort brushed off the whole situation in general, however I knew it didn’t justify my slip. The second time I relapsed was on September 30th, I was finished with all of my homework and had a little time to spare before heading off to bed. I remembered that my friend was watching The Heirs, and I immediately started to have a craving to watch that same show. I thought to myself, “One time won’t hurt,” and I began to watch episode 1. When I realized that I really should not be following Korean media, I stopped watching and I was somewhat upset at myself after doing it. On October 5th, I relapsed again, and the same situation recurred that I had, had with the second relapse. This time however, it was while I was taking a break from working. I finished episode 1 of The Heirs and I felt upset at myself again immediately after
I had a few slips during the week of September 18th. These slips were caused by scrolling through the feeds of my social media accounts. Once I realized that I was slipping, I immediately withdrew from viewing the video and exited out of the social media network. During the nine weeks however, I did relapse four times. On September 20th, my friend was watching the Korean drama, The Heirs, while our study group was doing homework. I have watched this show before, and I was extremely interested in what episode she was on and I felt the urge to watch the show at the same time she was. I ended up doing just that. I got through about the first 30 minutes of the first episode before remembering that I had just started the abstinence experience. I realized that I had relapsed when I walked away from watching the episode to continue working on what I was originally doing before I slipped and turned on the drama. I tried justify my use thinking that watching the show was a normal thing for me and so I sort brushed off the whole situation in general, however I knew it didn’t justify my slip. The second time I relapsed was on September 30th, I was finished with all of my homework and had a little time to spare before heading off to bed. I remembered that my friend was watching The Heirs, and I immediately started to have a craving to watch that same show. I thought to myself, “One time won’t hurt,” and I began to watch episode 1. When I realized that I really should not be following Korean media, I stopped watching and I was somewhat upset at myself after doing it. On October 5th, I relapsed again, and the same situation recurred that I had, had with the second relapse. This time however, it was while I was taking a break from working. I finished episode 1 of The Heirs and I felt upset at myself again immediately after