Monologue On Suicide

I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin' every day I feel like dyin'

Why do I even try, why do I even write lyrics about how I'm livin' the life when I'm battlin' pain and my demons at night trying to find a new outlet the devil pounced in
I hear him howlin' my vision cloudin' man I tried to escape but there ain't no way try to be strong when I deal with the pain

yah, but I'm ditchin' the coffin so my family has options gonna work till I'm dead so that they get the best don't wanna set up a bad example
'cause kids lookin' up can't live with shambles can't make them think that that’s okay so fuck suicide I'm here to stay

tried to free my mind
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wastin' all my time tryna find the light

tried to free my mind
I don't know what's right wastin' all my time tryna find the light

I'll be at it runnin'
I'll be runnin' from myself now gunning demons down find my way out of the cell now
I'll be runnin' oh
I'll be runnin' from myself now gunning demons down find my way out of the cell now

I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna fuckin' die just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright, but every day I feel like dyin' every day I feel like dyin'

one too many bad thoughts inside me got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
I'm pressed for time I'm stressed with life my breath is ice I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always barely stand to crawl down the hallways sink into my bed, with death inside my head

That note you found, I didn't mean it just wish I had a better sense of meaning never meant to let you down
I've been down and